Sunday, August 27, 2006 5:36 AM

Muii heart was torn and tears had fallen

♥How it tore muii heart ... the day that i say i dun wan to care about what she do any more ... muii heart tore... i nearly drop muii tears back then ... but i force it back ... while taking bus back home ... muii tears keep coming out ...

i dun noe wats wrong ... but i told her to take care ... i guess its shows that i'm really not going to do any thing about wat she says any more ... though i really like her ... but wat could i do ?? i can only keep to muii self ... how afraid i am ... to go back to the days of ignoring each other ... the cold war ... i guess i cant accept another this ... i'm sad ... but does she knows ? i guess she dun ... how would she know ? she does not even care at all ... all i wan is her attention ... is that too much to ask for ? any way ... no worries ... we wont see each other much longer ... she said b4 she wana transfer school, while i graduate ... its okie ... i noe its hard for me to forget her ... but then .. hais ... there is really nothing that i can do about it .. i'm helpless over it...

i'm sad ... but then ... hais ... i just know i really cant forget her ... although she had ignored me for 6 mths ... i should have forgotten her ... but i din ... in fact i yearn for her more ... even till today ... i still cant forget ... though i said those words ... but i noe i cant stop caring for her... i can only care in the dark ... to protect her secretly ... for i cant do it openly ... at least i know i'm doing something for her ... i guess it been only on muii part ... thats all ... i noe i am giving it all ... but she isn't ... but its okie ... so long she is happy and i can see her smile ... i'm contented ... knowing that she is safe and happy ... i am happy ... seeing the beautiful smile and face of her's ... i guess its more then enuff for me ...

i wana stop here ... i dun wan to continue on to ruin a day that seems so beautiful to me ... i shall end off ...

All Along Its been One sided love isn't it ??

Saturday, August 19, 2006 12:55 PM

muii new blog

♥trying to do it ... later then update