Wednesday, August 22, 2007 12:42 AM

Disappear .... Disappearing ... Disappeared ...

♥I wont be posting while i'm in seclusion ... yes ... i've decided to make my self uncontactable start next mon onwards ... duration ... i dun noe ... may a few days ... maybe for the whole of a week or a mth ...

Pls dun bother to contact me ... especially you ... because i wont want to hear from u at this period of time ... nither would u wan too ... let me go and clear the mess i am in now ...


TILL HERE ...
I SHALL TAKE MY LEAVE ...
LEAVING NO TRACES BEHIND ...
TO EVERYONE ESPECAILLY YOU ...

Tuesday, August 21, 2007 12:44 PM

Celine Dion

♥For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

12:56 AM

I Screwed Things up again ... Did i take yet another wrong turn ??

♥I screwed things up again ... my bio paper did not go well ... and was so tired after the paper... nevertheless ... i sms her .. then in the end ... it was like i going to quarrell with her ... So that screwed everything up ... wth ... my fault i know ... i'm sorry ... i dun wan things to turn this way...

Then tried talking to her on msn ... but then find her reply quite cold lor ... maybe ish i tink too much or maybe i had really screwed things up ... i dun noe lah ... i just dun wan anything to happen lor ... just when i thought was going smoothly ... But going aroud in circles also no use ... Cuz its my fault mah ... my attitude ... SORRY ... pls forgive me okay ?? Please .. >.< O.O

Ai ya ... must build up confidnece liao .. dun care ... must ... if not ... its bad for me ... no doubt i got the uncertainty in me .. but i will get through ... because you supported me ... and i do really need ur wonderful support that you have been giving me so far ... thank you ...

Lets not let what had happen today to destroy everything ... let me make it up alright ?? I dun wana lose you ... i really dun ...


Till here ...









I'm sorry for all that ...
Your support brought me thus far
And i need it even more ...
Say that i'm depedent on you ...
But its you who get me through ...
Till the end ...
I hope we stay ...

Monday, August 20, 2007 4:17 AM

I wonder ...

♥Oh dear dear ... its exams in a few more hours ... and i'm up and jumping ... seriously ... is i cant sleep ... i fell asleep in the day ... then just now only sleep for 2 hrs ... played 2 hrs ... and now going to study after this entry ...

After that "incident" ... i guess only a few ppl noe bah ... i again ask myself again ... what will it turn out to be ?? Hais ... I'm doubting myself again ... i'm losing confidence again ... I'm sorry ... komenasai ... she said i am not confident ... thats the thing she hope i can change in bah ... but here i am ... doubting myself again ... wheter i had taken yet another wrong step ... I'm relieved and assured ... when she told me ... after that night of conversation ... she felt that we had gotten close ... but uncertainties still lingers in me ... deep down ...

Everyone is unique in their own ways ... so what about me ... i guess she was the first to tell me ... I tink you are unique ... hmm ... i mean ... after all these while ... its only recently then i know ... i'm attracted to her ... then i know such a nice person is actually by my side ... who accepts me for who i was ... who did her best to understand even when i can be unreasonable at times ... did all she can to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling down ... telling me jokes ... sending me funny videos to brighten up my day ... i mean ... where can i ever find such a nice girl now ??

In July ... i am not sure if i did post on it ... I had a good talk with Chin How ... then he told me is either you get over it and be done with it ... if not move on ... i gave myself a 2 mth grace to sort out that problem i had been dragging for 2 years ... now that i decided to move on ... because i found someone who is willing to accept me for who i was ... cuz she was the one who standby me ... motivate me ... and now that the 2 month grace period is almost up ... i made my decision ... to move on ... I'm sorry if this got me down ... i mean feeling the uncertainty ... i know you want me to be confident ... But many set backs in the past had made me lose it all ... but i will do my best to get it back ... because you're worth the effort ... you're the one who appreciate what i am trying to do so that we can see a future together ... you're the one who did not reject straight ... you're the one who is willing to gve the chance to work things out together ... where can i find another person like you ... for i had been searching for you ... for all these years ... you're all that matters to me now ...

Well ... the few ppl close to me know about this incedent le ... if you chance upon this entry ... then You will know ... well ... my bao bei mei ... she told me ... kor i Know her ... she is very nice gal ... if she is willing to work things out with you ... i'm happy ... she hope to see us together ... well ... lets be abit thick skin here ... she taught me that :) You're a nice gal i am a good guy :D


Lets walk this journey together shall we ... we are understanding each other more as the days goes ... I am waiting for the story you wanted to tell me about your life ... and i am waiting to tell you the story of my life ... I look forwards to the future together ... M&M


You got me suicidal ...
Your innocent face ...
Naive nature ...
Blurr Self ...
Its what i am attracted to you .....

Sunday, August 19, 2007 10:32 PM

Moody Plus Moodless

♥Moody Plus Moodless ... all thanks to one stupid dream ... alright ... i can pronounce GG for my bio ... i din study finsih all ... and tomorrow is early morning test :(

If its afternoon ... still no so bad ... alright ... God bless me then ... i just wan to passed ... not much ... ai ya ... jiu shi ... the dream very disturbing ,,, make me so wat ...

I think i go sleep le la ... Give me A better dream ... :)


You got Me suicidal :D
Lets write our story together :D

8:31 AM

NO TITLE ??

♥No title for this entry ... havent slept for the day ... and i cant sleep now ... if not tonight cannot sleep ... tomorrow test is a goner liao ... and i havent really finish studying my bio ... or shld i say barely started ... i only complete Blood ... started CVS ... i still got skeletal and muscles to go .... Holy Shit ... going to die ...

I now also feeling fatigue ... and tired .. if i sleep ... then jiu gone ... hais ... cannot sleep la ... argh ...


She sms me just now ... woke up so early ... 7 plus ... cuz got tuition at 10 ... then yesterday sleep at 7 plus ... that yy never reply all my sms at all ... haha ... never mind la... she tired ... wanted to ask her out de ... with bro and his laopo ... but she got tuition ... Studies more impt XD ... haha ... ai ya ... i tink i better go study liao la ...


You got me suicidal ... You're simply CUTE :]

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Saturday, August 18, 2007 3:48 PM

You're A cute Gal aint you?? :D

♥Wellow peeps ... haha ... happy 1st birthday to my blog ... haha ... 1 year just pass so fast ... wakakaka ...

As usual ... slept at 5 again and woke up at 1 plus ... then sms mo mo ren ... cuz say do passport ... then so sway ... waited so long ... somemore saturday ... but ppl not legal age to do alone yet ... and i forgot abt it ... cuz the last time i went to do my passport thing was alone ... so as you know ... forgetful ...

Waseh ... mo mo ren still havent turn 15 sia ... birthday havent reached ... siao liao ... then i turning 18 soon ... haha ... almost 4 years gap sia ... OMG ... i'm so old ... T.T hais ....

Aiya ... overjoyed for words ... end here then ...


Lets work towards our future ... M&M
You got me suicidal :D

4:08 AM

You're Love by Me :)

♥Its My 80th to this Blog and its 1 YEAR LIAO !!! yup 18th August is my first year to this Blog ... Actually i got another Blog de ... that one left that rot ... so was intro to blogging by my gan jie in dec 2004 ... wa seh ... so fast ... going 3 years liao ...

Hmm ... maybe later the type more ...




You Are Loved By Me :)
&
I Know You Love Me too :D

Tuesday, August 14, 2007 5:50 PM

COMPUTERISED

♥NAME: NG MIN KAI KELVIN
DATE OF BIRTH : 28 FEBRUARY 1990
MOOD: MOODLESS
STRESS LEVEL : BEYOND DISCRIBTION
FINANCIAL : TOTALLY BROKE
EDUCATION LEVEL: O LEVELS, PURSUING DPLOMA IN NURSING
CURRENT STATUS : SINGLE AND AINT NO ONE TAKING
WEIGHT: ULTRAL OVER WEIGHT PLUS OBESE = BEYOND MEASUREMENT
HEIGHT : 165CM

MESSAGE:

TODAY WAS A BORING DAY, IT WAS SPEND STUDYING ON FOUNDATION OF NURSING, SOCIOLOGY AND FAMILY AND COMMUINITY HEALTH. AND HAVE NO HECK AN IDEA WHAT IS GOING ON, FOR ITS SO MUCH INFO TO DIGEST, AND ITS GONA BE A DIE FOR EXAMS. TODAY SMS SOMEBODY YET I RECEIVED NO REPLIES BUT I GUESS I'M USED TO IT. EVERYTHING HERE IS COMPUTERISED. NO FEELINGS OR MOOD ARE ATTACHED TO THIS ENTRY . MY BATTERY IS RUNNING LOW. ITS TIME FOR ME TO SHUT DOWN AND RECHARGE ... I HOPE I HEAR MY REPLY TOMORROW.

ITS 2 PPL BIRTHDAY SOON AND BOTH DEAR TO ME . I WISH THEM A HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE. TILL HERE

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Monday, August 13, 2007 12:51 AM

A Song For My friend

♥You start it all
And Want to back off
Treat me like thrash
And is it that all

I don't Accept it
Cause its not my fault
I'll make you regret
And cry for me

[Chorus]
And i don't give a damn
Because its all your fault
And if it all end this way
It is all not my fault


All because of you
My whole liffe is ruined
All because of you
I'm just of broken toy

And I will revenge
I swear that I will
You are just a past
That should not exist

I worte this song upon listening to my friend story ... sometimes ... Ladies are just so demanding ... i'm not trying to be a sexist here ... but some times they are too much ... but Guys i aint siding also ... Guys also ... rather bastards at times ... Thus i wrote this song ... i got the tune ... haha ... its finalise already...

Exams in a few more days ... must really study like nobody business liao ... hais ... i dun like exams ... it sucks ... hais ... No choice ... go study now ... i had been sleeping for 1 whole day already ... time to study ....

Saturday, August 11, 2007 4:30 AM

Woots

♥Some funny videos from wednesday ...

(The Legendary HEI BI [SHRIMP] )


(Its time for me to slim down ... )


(I wriggle my way through ... yeah !!!)

Friday, August 10, 2007 5:23 PM

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !!!

♥Alright ... i'm late to wish Singpaore happy 42nd birthday ... and i did not watch the NDP for the first time in my whole life ... wahahaha ... amazing ... i was playing DOTA !! alright .... long time since i update ... lazy mah ... lets be back tracked to SUNDAY.

SUNDAY

Morning wake at 9 plus went to MIN KOO to cut hair, wash hair and style hair ... cuz afternoon is my Brother de wedding .. so bo bian go ... and not bad la ... then went home play psp lor ... then bathe and change ... went to mandai orchid garden ... the solemnisation took place there ... on the way there saw many many police ... wondering what happen ... never mind still go ... then reached there ... saw many unfamiliar ppl ... mostly are the "BROTHER" or "SISTER" of either my Bro or Sis in law ... so u noe ... BORED ... left that damn psp in the car ... then saw Mrs Lum and Miss Chan, our primary school teacher whom can say taught all 3 siblings us ... so they were invited there too ... then solemnisation taking place ... stupid idiot ... the lady who so call coordiantor damn ultra KAO BEI ... kick her stomach help her deliver her baby then she know ... then in the end ... THE MALE SIDE MEANS MY BRO AND RELATIVES .. sit under hot sun ... like burning ... one of my grand anuty say ... Chao ta and on fire still must stay ... then my Sis in law side ... sit under shade ... #$%^*(*&^%$#$%^&* WTF?? lousy reception and planning by the Mandai orchid garden ppl ... nevertheless sit there 10 mins b4 the whole thing over ... went to eat buffet ... damn nice ... woots ... eat till lan .... then ask dad drive me to orchard ... cuz class mates all there doing project ... so went to help ... then after that i went home slack ...

MONDAY

Went to school for my last lecture in BIO ... then the lecturer also damn cute ... Did a presentation for us ... with our class pics ... like graduation ... then nice la ... then jiu say see us next term ... cuz Bio 1A finish le ... 4 mths just passed like that ... i finished 1 semester le ... wa seh ... amazing sia ... so fast .. then next week exams ... and i havent realy started studying ... I'M GONA DIE .. but i got good brains ... just need to put to use ... i hope by TUESDAY NIGHT ... i would have gotten wednesady to friday de modules in my head ... so i can study the other 3 modules ... well can de la ... in short 6 modules of examinations ... then monday was the last presentation le ... Phew ... got a B for it ... then like that lor ... most like all 5 prentation is A A B B B ... only the pyschology dun noe ... but teacher say very very good ... so maybe A lor ... not bad worx ... haha ... and i failed all my mask fitting test ... which some one say impossible ... i tink the N95 de .. large on i never make properly .. thats yy the last step i failed ... i smelled that bloody agent ... was dying ... so bitter ...

TUESDAY

Supposed to be studying .. but did not ... went to school to chop a book cuz no chop = DIE ... so went ... tap card and left the LT ... cuz 1 hr ... sians ... Went home and slack ... and do nth much ... played dota lor as usual ... PSP again ... then never study ... siao liao ... so tuesday just passed like that ...

WEDNESDAY

Woke up ... study abit .. then play like siao again ... then ppl call ... ask wan got eat steam boat ?? so decided to go ... adn we went ... reached Bugis .. went to take neo print first ... then after that went to eat lor ... then sian ji pua ... i one person eating the MALA soup ... cuz no one dare to take ... then eat till i wan cry ... then we ate alot sia ... haha ... i tink ppl se le also scared ... haha ... we are hungry freaks ... but disappointing ... not BIG ENUF ... nex time damn hungry then we go .. haha ... then went to buy beer ... and drink lor ... then walk to pool fusion ... played pool ... and lalalalala ... went home ... and as usual ... on com .. do some stupid things ... adn slept ...

THURSDAY

Woke up on comp play ... watch video ... slack ... play psp ... then my sis in law came .. sian diao ... then after a while i went out ... meet the fatt bully ... take donation card ... then eat mac ... then went to check out games ... i went home take laptop ... then go his hse ... then we drink beer again ... then play dota ... 3 ppl own the AI insane ... we like crazy freaks ... then i killed a few times ... not bad la ... quite nice ... then played till sian ... stopped ... did some psp stuffs ... then slack ... after a while go home ... then come home ... as usual ... on comp play dota then psp ... and now blogging lor ... now is friday morning le ...

FRIDAY

Its 2.21 AM now ... then slack la ... tomorrow got school ... no intention of going ... so bored ... see lor ... can wake up go ... cannot then dun go ... simple ... haha ... sians ... stop here le ... nth much to type anyways ...



U got me dazed ... It all just started like that ... though we din say ... just keep it this way ... dun disappoint me or make me angry ... and we're no difference from others ...

Wednesday, August 01, 2007 3:07 PM

Feeling The Heat

♥WELLO ... peepos ... haha ... been a few days since i update wo ya ?? haha .. okay ... life not too bad ... just boring .. haha ... as always ... anw exams are near .. need to study ... so ... study study ... mugging mugging ... haha ...

Presentation today ... we did well ... claps claps ... good job to my group ... teacher rather satisfied with it ... and tomorrow got test ... i mean later.. at 2 plus ... yy cant start at 1.30 ?? so can end early mah .. sians ...

dun noe what to blog also ... I'm in love with a sotong ... gosh ... how can that be ?? You're the reason i'm smiling ... :) ...