Thursday, March 29, 2007 6:10 PM

♥Its early hours in the morning liao ... i'm still not sleeping ... haha .. siao ... well ... i did the unbelievable... i requested to stop serving in JVS side for a short while, when asked to determined my short while, i guess to me minimum 3 months, maximum 6 to 9 months. dun ask me why, but i just wanted to stop... i tink i wana recollect my feelings back to the right track, before i can move on, i feel that my life is in a total messed up condition, thus i guess its time to do some clearing up...

i'm not sure what will the reaction be when i see the upper in charges on saturday ... but no matter wat, i want off .. thats it ... i'm sorry... but i want off ... when i told this to some of my frens, all asked me why, all say i siao to give up for presidents award when i can do it, next i gona stopp serving in jvs side ... well .. i'm sorry ... i need time to recollect my feelings back to the right track .. i dun tink i am in the best of the condition to carry further...

two days ago, was the 5th month where i noe that beautiful gal that i fell in love with, nah ... din talk to her ... and i totally forget to send her the sms that i typed out .. stupid right ?? over le la ... no point .. wait till the 6th month lor ... simple ... did see her on that day ... i mean two days ago ... but only a few seconds ?? after which i left school already ... oh ya ... poly starting soon liao .. haha .. so damn fast sia ... how time flies .. so big liao ... 17 leh ... haha ... sounds like a great age ... haha ...

men ... during these period of growing up years ... really did fall hard and learn lessons through the hard way ... man ... some are so darn painful ... haha ... pain make us learn our mistakes well ... but not necessary to be in any events ... just now go help my mei pay for the changing of her hp housing ... then tell me never bring money out .. i went to withdraw first ... guess what ... i did the most stupid thing i could have ever done ... i accidentally press the withdraw $1000 dollars button ... wakao ... i got a big scare can .... 20 pieces of $50 ... then after that quickly go home ... and went to my house posb cash deposit machine to deposit the money back ... wakao ... scary sia ... got a big big scare sia ... haha ...

well gal .. i'm sorry ... its been so hard just to tell u i love you .. i am not sure if u do too ... but i noe ... i noe that i do love you ... u make my life sway ... i love you loads ... i'm am waiting ... but ain't waiting like a fool no longer ... gona wait and do something about it ... cuz i noe .. i waited for you for the past 5 months of my life ... wana make u feel special ... that you're the only gal in the world that i should love ... let u feel that you're beautiful ... let you feel that you're as sacred as any treasures to me ... I love you ...

Sunday, March 25, 2007 4:18 PM

♥yeterday went to the wedding ... nice ... finally ... my ex capt got married ... i tink i did something that ppl might deem as siao ... well i dun noe ... i just decided its not for me .. so i withdraw out ... i am siao liao ...

i decided to withdraw my president men application... yes ... i decided not to pursue it any longer .. when i wanted to be a founders ... i fought so hard for it ... yet its not given to me ... now its given to me to work for it ... i choose to reject it ... siao right ... one of the three in the comapny to qualify ... i the first to reject it ... haha ...

i tink i dun wana work for it .. i'm still not ready for it .. there are more things i need to work on before i tink i am fit to go for it ... so for now ... its a no no no ... i will push it aside ...

well ... today she got the drill competition ...never win ... never mind .. dun feel down alright ?? the most impt thing is that you had given your best ... and i wont doubt it .. you definitely had given your best ... i believed in you ... come on ... ur sms better be on ... i'm feeling damn wat liao ... so long no talk to you le ... miss you sia ...

alright ... i wan go sleep le ... tired ... i love you ... u noe i do ... i will do my best ... to make u mines ... LOVESS....

Saturday, March 24, 2007 4:48 PM

♥Its been a while since i updated .. haha .. was darn busy back the past 2 weeks ... had been working like siao ... so no time ma ... now got time le ... so update abit lor ... haha ... just change a blog skin ... wa seh ... veri bright colours .. haha ... but i like it ... wahahaha ...

hmm ... had no idea what the heck did she did to get her hp kena suspend till so jia lat .... piang eh ... really la .. .what did you do ... wan talk to you also so difficult ... ma fan nia ... wa seh ... time pass veri fast sia ... 3 more day jiu 155 days .. and is 5 mths !!! wa seh ... oct 27 2006 till now ... time really flies ... yesterday did my medical check up .. still waiting for the results ... if they never call in a few days time .. means i pass le .. and on my way to nursing .. wahaha ... happy lor ... school startin on apr 16 .. in another 3 more weeks .. so fast ... woots ... next phase of my life .. .wakakaka... did blood test ... and hand still feeling weak ... haha .. i tink not used to it ... wakakaka...

hmm ... i miss her sia .. yesterday did saw her .. but never talk ... stupid right ... dun noe what the heck was i doing ?? wakakaka ... then got ppl tell me she play soccer ?? what the heck /? NOT BAD SIA ... haha ... good what ... got exercise ... guess what .. i kept to my bargain of 1 kg per mth weight lost .. and i had lost 3 kg ... can go further ... haha ... sian ... later going to my ex capt de wedding ... congrats men ... see you later ...


Hey gal ... take care alright ?? see you soon ... misses you loads ... you do know that i love you .. dun you ?? i wont be waiting anymore ... i'm going to work for it ... no point waiting .. its time to take some actions ... I LOVE YOU !!!

Friday, March 16, 2007 11:08 AM

♥Wa seh ... march holidays ending liao ... as soon as it begun .. its ending ... supposedly to have stopped work this week de ... but since boss say cannot find some one to take it on next week ... she ask me hold on to next week ... then okay lor ... help her ...

sian ... getting bored ... my poly oreintation is 13th apr ... 16th apr start school ... still waiting for NYP to send me the package ... then go check up ... if passed ... will be a nurse liao... wahahaha... lalalalala

dun wan type now ... later then type ... GUM SIAN ...

its the small little things u do that made big turmoil in my life ...

Monday, March 12, 2007 1:13 PM

♥GUM SIAN CAN ... she fell sick ... sad sad sad ... wat to do ?? heh ... me going sick soon okay ... working like siao ... it can kill me ... ppl ask me not so hard ... or else i will "peng" .. which i think i am going to peng sooner or later ...

Well ... sometimes i am feeling weary ... worn out in another words ... holding on since 139 days ago, just wonder does time not prove everything ?? does time no show that everything is gona be real ?? wth ?? i have no idea why things turn out this way ... but i am gona use the secret... the secret tat lead to the success of many ppl in the world ... i am gona use that secret ... GAL, I SWEAR I AM GONA MAKE U MINES ....

sometimes i do wonder if is it that i am not confidant of myself ... i dun noe ... probaly at times yes.. Gal ... what must i do before i can still convince you that i do love you ... men ... u drive me crazy at times ... but thats what i love abt you ... u make me wana call u in the middle of the nite ... u make me wana hold you to the morning light .. thats it ... u got me gal ... thats how it went to you ...


I AM STRESSED ... duh .. i am ... i had one of the worst week of my life ... i am really dun noe wat to do ... stress liao la ... CHAO CHEE BYE ... dun noe la .. i wana go sleep again ... Gal ... i'm making you mines ... just mines alone ... some tines i dun wana be strong ... i just wana break down ... but the tears are not coming ... the pride still standing ...

1:41 AM

♥Just came home from camp ... veir tired sia ... this whole week ... hardly was on bed for more then 6 hrs a day for the week ... damn tired ... gona sleep later ... if not ... tomorrow gona have difficulty in going to work ... haha ...

sian leh ... she still never reply me ... never mind ... lets use the law of attraction then ... i noe what it is ... those who dun noe ... too bad ... haha ... sad lor ...

Ai ya ... too tired to continue ... later wake up le then say ...



I LOVE YOU... gal ... i am making u mines ...

Thursday, March 08, 2007 4:50 PM

♥Some times i really wonder, why did i go out so much for a fren, why must i sacrifise more then others, and yet when end up with some complains by a fren u called, u always got the most pin pointing and judgement from ppl.. so much for being a fren ... i just wonder ... is everything going wrong now ?? its seems that it is ... evolution ?? no idea ... i just feel so damn hurt .. and pissed off ... i wana let it all out .. so i can feel better ... i jus came home from work since 7 am in the morning ... now its already abt one .. tomorrow arnd 7 plus need work again ... but i took half day off ... good thing got some one willing to subbed me for it .. thanks fella ...

And that fella who helped me is what i call a fren, he who does not mind helping others .... and not complaining ... some one that i only known for 2 months ... is willing to go out so much for me ... while some one i known for almost my whole life gave me such a terrible time ... i wana let out now ... i'm sorry .. but this gona get nasty .. but if i keep in any longer ... i tink i will go beserk ...

KAN NI NA ... u tink i am wat ?? i go out so much for a fren i trusted so much .. and all u ever do is to " suan" (calculate) everything wit me ... out 10 times , when u only do 2 things for me while i did 8 things for you ... you would bragg as if everything was the opposite ... FUCK YOU ... CHAO CHEE BYE ... when u're lazy and dun wana do things and wan me do ... i must ... and u can be lazy and pushed it to me ... when at times i am tired and wana u to help ... U KAO BEI ME... LAN JIAO OKAY ... wat type of FUCKING reason is it ??? U NA BEI better gibb me a good explanation abt it ... dun wana say anylonger ... some times ... its just that life is like that is not it ?? life is not what one expects it to be ... this is a powerful phrase i rmb from my o level lit novel ...

pay came ... but veri little .. abt 1/3 of it i havent submit ... but i can tapped on my savings first ... its alright .... some times things just get so FUCKED UP ... oh ya ... i got into nanyang poly nursing ... yup .. i did it ... acheive my dreams ... weee ... at least that something worth to be happy and elated about ... wana share my happiness wit her so much .. sms and ask her if she got her hp back .. no reply at all ... feel sad definitely ... what to do ... forget it la ... i'm losing the race already ... i knew it ... i just wana cry so much ... but i cant find a single tears ... some times loving a person is so hard ... that it seems hating the person seem so much more easier... tell me ... what else must i do .. i really dun noe .. i wana find my tears and cry my heart out ... but it seems that it is not coming anymore ...

i never expect that i would have went so far in feelings for her .. but its a little too late to regret now ... its almost 5 mths le ... and i am stupidly waiting ... just why ... i wanted eeu ... i wanted eeu to be by my side ... i wanted to be able to hold your hands and tell the world one day ... that u are mines an i am yours ... trust me ... there is never an eternity ... but there are always memories ... i may be gone from your life anytime ... i wont know ...ever since i start working ... it makes me realise how much life is ... i wana spend my time wit you .. frens and families ... cuz i wont noe when some one deicides that i am about to leave ...

even if i do leave ... i believe i would have leave loving you ... i never ever regretted that day ... that fateful 27 oct 2006 ... where i got to noe you and had fallen for you ... i wont regret ... its part of my beautiful memories where i can look back and smile on ... to me ... memories are what we should call ... ETERNITY...

i love you ... i shall take my leave ...

Sunday, March 04, 2007 10:33 PM

♥just a short post for today, tomorrow gotta work, and i'm seriously running out of money to go to work, tomorrow will be albe to see the big boss tomorrow, so gona talk to him about it, he is taking my side of the 5N ... sway ... recently had been taking sec 5 for the camps ... haha ...

Well ... i sms her ... but no reply, i guess her hp still kena suspended lor... wa seh ... sad men ... nvm la ... when she get back le jiu will see my msg le lor ... simple ... wahahaha ... dun noe yy ... recently no mood to do anything ... i think i will email my music man in charge ... to emphasies that i cannot work after march holidays ... now its only start of march ... so its not too late ... if not i will get saboed... i think i need to be firm on that, after all i did tell my in charge ... so its not my fault, i got black and white of it.

Sian leh ... nth much to say ...


if loving you was such a hard choice... would letting you go be easier ?? i doubt so... just what must i do to convince you that i do really love you ... what must i really do to move your heart... what must i really do to make u mines ?? i just wanna know what must i do before i can have you ... are you gona tell me ?? 4 mths 05days ... i'm still waiting ...

Saturday, March 03, 2007 5:15 PM

♥Wa seh ... been a few days since i updated ... so many things happen .. lim peh offcially declared bankrupt ... yes i am offcially declared bankrupt, no more money le ... and lim peh pay havent come ... so sorry boss ... no one is gona be taking work now ... no money to work le ... so all da best boss ...

Well din have the best birthday of my life ... spent it working ... diao ... sian diao ... wahahaha... but okay la ... at least got my frens who tried to cheer me up by sending me sms .... she send me too !!!! glad that she send :) ... i was already saying ... suan liao la ... ppl forget le ... feeling sad okay ... then the sms came ... woots ... great ... then at work so touch, angel and one other gal ask me not to be sad ... :) ... and and ... i receive a big hug from them ... gosh ... so touching ... limpeh nearly cry ... sob sob ... thanks gals !! wait ... i not tiko ... we need 8 hugs a day to grow, 7 hugs a day to live ... heh .. i received four ... haha ... so i think ... going towards living ... haha ... thanks ... u guys really made up for me ...

Wa seh .. one of my mei ... stayed up online ... just waiting for me to reply her msn, when i was sleeping ... pai seh ... by the time wake up is 12+ am le ... i beri tired .. fell asleep ... she tell me waiting for me lor ... wana pei me ... cuz noe i had a lousy birthday this year ... sob sob .. .another one who make me cry ... thanks mei ... kor kor will rmb de ... wahahah... well thats all for my birthday thing...

March ... came liao .. so fast hor ... wa seh ... now also dun noe wat to type ... when got things type i type again ba ... gtg sleep le ..

I love you ... never gona let u go ... still waiting for the day for you to tell me you love me ... :)