Sunday, March 23, 2008 12:32 AM

I need no such emotions call EMO

♥Alright, I'm posting again, because i really have nth much to do. I noticed how bored out my life were since i grew out of secondary school life. Come on man, thats gotta be kidding me, there is more to life ?

Monday need go back FTPSS to collect somethin that i left there. Hope to see that person again. She is like WOW to me. And my fren joining me too, cuz he hopes to see that gal of his too, then we go back office to do some paper work and see if we can get gary to talk abt trainer traning. Oh dear, I wish monday come soon man. Argh.

I tot abt it, When does this thing emo start surfacing ? I think was just a few yrs back that i noe what emo this 3 letter was and ppl were using it for. Come on, WE DUN NEED EMO THIS EMOTIONS. ITS CRAPP. Really, I lazy to type now, let me change to my laptop and lie comfortably on my bed b4 i continue.

Okay, here are somethings, especially females teens will do when emo. I'll list it all out and tell you why is it stupid to do that. Prolly after reading through, those with good brains will agree with me thats stupid, those with brains like a mustard seed size and knowledge of a 3 yr kid will think that i'm just crapping my way through.

First. Pen knife and self mutilation. Thats stupid. Self mutilation to feel the physical pain so as to lessen the emotional pain. Hello, You guys sucks at Biology at this point. Pain does not relieve pain faggots. Endorpines produced by the body via the human mind is a natural pain killer, thus lessen some pain. I've never heard of pain on others things will reduce pain on another. So if my patient is having a terrible headache, maybe the cure is to chop off one of my patient hand so he wont "feel the pain " of the headache ? Thats call crappy cure. Yea you stop the headache no dobut, but you cause another pain, in the end you might as well kill him. Self mutilation too deep, leave scars, ppl see will know straight you're a emo kid. And if you ever go for a job interview be it part time or wat, ppl once see those scars will nt bother to contact you further. If i'm the boss, i wont need a emo staff who cant do anything but self mutilate. Thats simple, so ppl, self mutilation is stupid. FAGGOTS.

Second, Take 20-30 tablets of panadol and a cane of coke. Thats way stupdier. I cant imagine who invented this sickening way of ending life. Its FUCKING, I repeat FUCKING stupid. A few reasons to that. One you do not die from panadol overdose till more than 24 hrs to 36 hrs later. And usually b4 24hrs, you wld be landed in the hospital. And because of the chemical reaction, you will be going through immense pain, mind you IMMENSE PAIN. Probably can fight with the contraction pain of a women going through labour. And after landing in the hospital, they gona wash your stomach and flush it. You think you're sedated while the process of wahsing takes place ? YOU ARE WELL DAMN WRONG. Yes, they do it while you are concious and the pain of it, No words can discribe, probably the pain of losing your arm and legs tore straight out from your torso ? And you land yourself into deep shit, cause thats call attempted suicide, police case and can land you in court and to jail. You cant deny that taking 30 panadol is not attempted suicide, no one will believe you. It cant be an accident, Oh i having headache, so i tot 30 panadol at once may relieve the pain immeidately, The judge or police will probably laugh his ass or dick out.

Next, pain knife and wrist cutting, Thats another stupid way. You got 6 litres of blood, for you to die is to lose abt 2-2.5 litres of blood, and its not easy to aim for an artery, even doctors have difficulty, but somehow in the show, those ppl were expert at finding the correct artery that casue them to bleed to death, again, it takes time to die. You need to bleed for a certain time for a certain amount of blood to be lost then you will die, if you luggi, you dun go deep enough, it may even clot up and stop. So its stupid, dun try. If you did, You're just a stupid maggot + faggot.

There is more, but i'll stop for teens. I'll go on to common suicide methods used by both adult and teens. And explain why is it stupid. First up, jumping from a high building.

Thats oh, crapp way of dying, if i wan to die, i will wan to die in one piece, jumping out from the 11th floor aint a good way, if you land awkwardly, you may end up having your head twisted 180 degrees, face smashed like mashed potato. Skull crack and prolly the taofu call brian flowing out ? then broken ribs leg and hand tiwsted in a FUCK funny angle. It looks so disgusting, i wont wan to die that way. Some ppl choose to die that way, especially those pretty ladies, pretty lady die ugly, thats so ironic and contradicting.

Next Jump MRT. Wah seh, uniquely singapore style. That is call dumb. You kena hit by mrt, the impact is as good as jumping out from the window from keppel towers highest floor. Worst still, you get dragged dun noe who long b4 the train stop, certain part of your body may turn minced meat and you die ugly. Lastly you wont be able to die well, cuz all commuters will start cursing and swearing at you. So i dun think thats a good way to die, i dun wan ppl to curse and swear abt me when i die.

Well, i think i stopped here, I'm tired alrdy, I'll continue some other time. PPL who commit suicide citing that there is no solution to their problems are LOSER. FAGGOTS.


You got me mesmerised. I want to see to see your face again.
And its too late to apologize.

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Monday, March 03, 2008 10:30 PM

Tell me, where do i go ?

♥Alright, today was my first day at hospital again. I'm posted to a Oncology ward, mainly cancer ward. Meaning most of my patients have cancer. I feel so much for them. Some are so young. I aked myself, will i end up in their shoes ? Some are just slightly older then me they got leukemia. Need to go through the tormentous process of chemo therapy, ultimately needing to have a bone marrow transplant. Will i see death during this posting ? I wont know. I hope i wont.

Again, i spend another year growing old by myself. I think i should start getting used to it. I've spend consecutive 2 yrs of my one and only big day on work, last and this year. I thought maybe that weekend would be a better one for me. But sadly no. I purposely "forgot" to remind her that we had an appointment on sat afternoon. And she forgot. I tested her, and she failed it again. Suan le bah, its time i get used to her not remembering anything. Not i'm that particular. But ... nvm lah. I'm not sad or what, thats the surprising thing. Maybe, to me, having her around or not having her around does not really matters that much to me anymore.

Finally, I turned 18. I gona take my BTT and apply for my PDL to start my lessons. Aim, october to november get my licence. Jia You ! Alright, i'll probably stop here, Good thing, tomorrow is afternoon shift 12-9 :(

Will i wake up to a better day ? Tell me that i will, or I'll leave in my sleep.