Wednesday, October 31, 2007 5:39 PM

BACK TRACKED !!!!

♥25th OCT THURSDAY

After school went kayaking at water venture at jurong lake, well cuz too long no kayak, never take the covered one, then also too long no kayak, find it tiring at first, after getting into momentom, wee ... its nice ... the sun, not so hot la, but hor ... still i turn RED, very red ... like (hong shao kao zhu) red roasted pig in english. Even now as i back tracked, my leg is just recovering fine, hand skins are peeling ... hais. Water at jurong lake, nt very clean, alot of dead fish floating some more... then got yuan ching sec de dragon boat team come traning, the got girls de ... but as usual ... none can make it. Then when we stopped kayaking, they went pract with kayaks, some kayak until like they noob hole ... oh god .. nvm ... thats end of the day for thursday. my phone kena water, send for repair .. hais ...

26TH OCT FRIDAY

Its no school day, cuz its e learning day, my opinion is crapp.... cuz i slacked whole day ... sleeping and the effect of very bad sun burn sets it and ta dah, i'm in pain lor ... downloaded the materials and look through... then end my day slacking due to pain, of course ... applied alot of medication.

27TH OCT Saturday

Got woken up to go for BB... so went, followed up the dril test, nt too bad for most, but still can be better. Lunch at KFC, its been like hell long since i ate KFC. Then went home slacked, but no one is at home when its like 7 plus, cuz dad work, bro with wife, mum and sis go wedding dinner, then i pop over to mee zj to eat dinner, go his hse slack and do the coy tee shirt design. then went home at 1 am and slept.

28th OCT SUNDAY.
LEG still swollen and pain, sore throat, woke up at 11 plus ?? then eat breakfast cum lunch, stayed at home play and slack, then at night eat pizza for dinner, then watch the cancer charity show and then sleep... Short and sweet.


29th Oct Monday.
As usual went to school, tiring, well literally dun understand the lectures. Then time just passes and we went home fast. Nth much happen in school i guess ?? then went to collect back my hp, in okay condition lor. Hais. then time just flies and its time to sleep again.

30th OCT Tuesday
which was yesterday, i was so tired that i decided to give the last lecture a miss. Then we all wu long, miss on tutorial, cuz mistaken it for SDL. Then have to make up on friday. Sian lor ... nvm so like that lor. Then went to doc, cuz alot of ear wax in my ear deep down into the ear drum, so doc give me waxol to clear it and antibiotics cuz i got infection in the ear. Then doc never say cannot apply the waxol into the ear if got infection, i put in le ... bloody pain, read the direction to use, oh crapp, it say not to be used on inflammed ear. Thats it men ... hais ...

31 Oct Wednesday

Today. Went to school super early, but i was so groggy and tired. then i decided to give 2 lectures of the same modules a missed, cuz i was feeling uncomfortable, feel like vommitting out all i ate. Holy Crapp... then came home, took some medication and did some stuffs, now blogging... later maybe going sleep early bah ... recently only slep 7 hrs like that, the rest of the time are all doing some other stuffs. Well .. i guess i stopped here ... i'm tired ... Oh crapp ...

Tuesday, October 23, 2007 10:52 PM

Its so stupid to think of a title ....

♥Alright, let me update some happenings so far, as usual, school starts the 2nd week, registered for electives, but not the ones i wan, but i'm fine with it. Well, studies are getting more and more difficult. Hais, what to do? Tetiary Education aint a piece of cake.

Well, lets back tracked to Saturday. 20th OCT.
Went to yishun and to ex capt house (insanely big) i mean, he lives in a landed property ... and we discussed through the agenda for 2008. Well, for yr 2008, i will be doing the BBSGB and LDC2. We went through also what does the year of sabbath meant to us. I mean our sponsoring church procalaim that next year is the year of sabbath. Well to me in relation to BB, i think it would be releasing of duties. Meaning not taking so much duty. After all we will have 3 new primers coming in with us. With one moving to NS in april and One going to OCT ... so if those 3 comes, we would have 6 primers. We decided to challenge and raise next year recruitment drive participants to BB as 15. But i hope that it would be 20. So that the strength of the company will hit 40++. As usual, it aint difficult, just have to do it. Ah i also doing first aid next year. Well nt taking drill anymore, maybe will help here and there i guess ?

21 OCT Sunday.
I was totally knock out when i reached home on saturday and slept for a good 13 hrs till afternoon. Well friday i was doing some stuffs and did not sleep alot, and sat have to go early for the 2008 planning. So literally i was knocked out, as usual slack a little, and went to do some studies and later in the night i slept ...

22OCT Monday.
Well that would ve yesterday. Hmm nth much really happy ystd ? Just that bio lect was a lose to me... i simply lose track of what the lecturere was teaching, men i was trying to get what he said all the way until the last 30 mins of lect, i gt lost ... so i have to revisit in maybe on thursday when school ends early or no school at all ... Oh ... Friday is no school day ... woohoo ... cuz its e-learning day ... everything will be done online on friday ... so not so ho kang afterall... WENT TO DO shopping ... bought a lot of stuffs ... till broke as usual ...

23 OCT TUESDAY
Which is today actually ... well as usual start schoo ... later then usual ... but got some changes to time table, or rahter we misinterpret it wrongly ... and school ended at 3 and i went home ... so was watching a show , then later i fell a sleep till not too long ago that i wake up ... Now it brings me to what i really want to say ... Oh god ... this is gona be draggy and i have to be up at 6 tomorrow morning ... idiot lab, so early ...


Well let me ask, at the age of 18, How well do you know about realtionship ? About love, About marraige, About living together, About have children ? I guess that many will say ... at 18 dun talk abt that ... Some will say that at 20 plus they cant even give a definite ans to that... Well guess what ... my class mate at age 18 got married ... to some one who is significantly older then her ... and my opinion, of course i dun approve of it ... but who am i to do so ... my reason of disapproval was because, you're 18, you're studying, you get married ? Hello?! you have only seen life for 18 years what much can you do ? how much do you know about love that you will love the guy till you die ? How much do you know about what marraige is and what it takes to last ? How much do you know abt what it takes to live with a person probably for the rest of your life ? And how much do you know about the responsibilites of being a mother ? And now, she is saying is pregnant ... i guess. Why ? People say listening to Baroque music is good for the child. And now she wants to get it from me, and said, she hopes that it benefit her child. I'm sorry to say, but if you're really pregnant now, trust me, you wont be able to study, the morning sickenss, the stress of carrying the child, the check up ... Oh god ... those are enuff to kill you let alone the fact that you still need to study.

ALright even if you deliver the child, The time you need to spend taking care of the child ? for the first year after delivery, it takes the most time of your life, Every few hours have to wake up to feed the child, have to wake up when the baby cries, have to wake up to see if need to change pamapers, well happy studying for school then ... even now when u're single last sem ... you have difficulties coping with studies, what makes u tink u can do it when u becoma a parent ? OH GOD ... THERE ARE SO MANY CRAZY PPL ARND ... lets talk abt financial, as i know, the guy is earning probably a 2k plus a mth ? need to support the parents also, and now need to support you, and the upcoming baby ? hello ... 2K not alot worx ... buy milk powder, pampers is well enuff to take up probaby 1/3 or more of the pay, what about bringing the baby to doctor for check ups ? B4 delivery, need to see the GYni (pardon me for wrong spelling) and stuffs ... nt cheap ... and the lucky thing is you all aint buying a house yet ... if you do ... happy struggling then ... and i meant what i said ...

My class mates were all crazy abt her getting married ... seeing the wedding phots saying ... wah so nice ... beautiful ... as if supporting her decision ... for me ... i dun even bother to look ... when ever it comes to the topic abt her marraige or her so call coming baby ... i would simply ignore and switch subject ... maybe lets see years down the road, how will life turn out for her ... nt that i'm bad already cursing her ... but in a society in singapore ... its aint easy ... Sorry for being evil ... but i will be the one opposing it till the end ... even if i am the only one who oppose ...

Ah ... so things are just so hard to say ... lets zoom back to me now ... :) Well ... what can i do ... as much as i wan to bring you with me ... but i guess i cant ... although i said i will bring u along with me ... but i cant ... i dun wan to state the reason here .... i'm sorry ... i cant hold my end of word ... Unless ... well u noe ... i dun wan to state here ... i will let you know when the time is to come ... so i'm sorry ... i cant bring you with me ... its hard for A guy to explain when a gal is following him overseas for so many years ...

Well ... life so far so good ... men ... so fast ... 2 weeks had past .... 6 more weeks and it would finish my third term, 16 more weeks will finish off my first year in poly ... oh God ... that fast ...

When a guy cant keep up to his end of his promise, its not that he dun wan to ... but is he cant ... As much as he wants to, there are limitations ... unless ... u decide to be the one that will follow him where he goes till he dies ...

Friday, October 19, 2007 1:28 PM

Nth Much To be Said ... As usual

♥Wella peepos, finally found the time to do some blogging here. Currently in school, using the school com, ah... first time coming into the school comp lab to use computer, but since a long time ago, i'm lazy to bring my laptop to school. Nth much really happpen in school, as usual lectures are a real boredment. Its a heavier semester then last semester definitely, but it seems that i'm coping well with it so far.

Well, definitely i see those sickening bastards again, and as usual, when a bunch of stupid ppl get together, we do stupid things for sure :) Tired is a definite yes, everday have school in morning till late afternoon or evening time, went home is really a KO on the bed till the next morning, oh gosh, life aint that fun. Hmm, was told that there was this thing call world skills competition, and this year is taking place in Japan, Ah ... too bad ... nt eligible for it, if not i would wana go ... japan man ... kidding me ... there are chicks there :)

Well i wana participate in the 2009 world skill competition, where student nurses get together for this competition. I need to buck up in studies then ... aint doing too well for sem 1, i have fly in sem 2 now ... ah .. no more fooling around ...thats so sad ... hais ...

Alright i guess i stop here and update at home later, going out to vivo to get some things and tomorrow got leaders meeting to discuss the plans for the company for 2008, a new year is coming ahead soon, and i'm older again :(

Sunday, October 14, 2007 4:15 AM

Randomness

♥Oh my ... i'm surprised i did not suffer a muscle cramp last night. Well i went cycling from jurong all the way to lim chu kang jetty and back to jurong, i well believed that we hit 20Km the minimum. Well ... not a good trip, while navigating inside the cemetery, i fell from my bike up slope, and the worst is, i slam my knee first, which means, the new injury practically aggrevates the old one, so i'm currently having some pain there, which i am going to see the doctor soon. So sway to fall inside a cemetery, the whole trip was not easy too, due to the fact the injury causes alot of unecessary problems on the way back.

Good thing we did not get lost in the cemetery, if not... we would have spend the night there. I swear that next time ... i would drive there then to cycle there. But that will means wheter the car is available anot.

After some discussion with my dad, i decided, i will buy back the house i'm living in from my dad. Actually its kinda like show bah, something Big is going to happen in the house, to ensure my own well being, i will buy back the house. Show as in the sense, after paying my dad,probably he will pay me all back in his will, so literally i probably just paying for the procedures of it. Ah ... wat ever it is ... in short i am going to buy back the house.

Oh.. just a clarification for my last post, my scholarship did not come from SGH, instead it was from NHC (national heart centre) and i applied for it, just waiting for the interview, hope that i will get short listed, and once every thing is done i will be sponsored. Am i happy about it, yet not really, meaning i have to minimum pass everything which i can if i do study. Well ... once taken, cannot play on the line again, must make sure i can make it, i do not want to beak the contract terms ... heavy penalty...

Well ... thats all bah ... next round then update more... and hell a school is starting ... how i miss the FUCKERS ..


Thank you for all the things that had happened ... but once everything is okay for you ... i will be there i guess .... though is long ago ... but still ... inside it hold a type of special feeling ... that seems not too strong, yet it cant go away ...

Thursday, October 11, 2007 1:12 AM

Good Things Come one's way

♥Wella peepos ... These 3 days got exercise ... i went cycling ... so now my butt and some "area" feeling pain ... today was particularly wonderful, we cycle cycle ... and we end up near tuas ... from jurong to tuas ... my god ... but the route that we found is rather safe ... so its okay ...

Well ... Good things so come by ... SGH had sent me a letter, inviting me to take up a scholarship with them. But notice quite a few loop holes, so will study it further with my fren who works in SGH ... once i applyand get it ... things will be better ... OMG ... sometimes ... things just do not appear as that bad afterall...

well ... i'm tired .. tomorrow then update bah ... till here then ...

Some reason should not be understood ... Some things should just be forgotten ... some things should never cease to happen ...

Sunday, October 07, 2007 2:17 AM

Stupid things happens even in clever people

♥Oh great, the BBQ was wonderful. We finished eating everything ... Thats great, no food really went to waste, except for the mee hoon. Ya about 20 turn up, it was great, thus maybe i will plan again next year. I enjoyed myself, just that i cooked through out the time. Haha...

But my fren got drunk, and the mum call me, asking me,because she heard me saying no alcohol, so after explaining she understand its not my fauly, but one of my fren de boyfriend fault. She just wana to check, phew, i do things and make sure that i wont want anything to happen.. maybe next year if i organise at this period, i would be able to drive down if the car is available.

I'm so tired now, but my mind seems cant get to sleep as it seems, haha ... maybe its so tired that it thinks that it is awake... school starting in another week, time do really flies, Oh god ... the year is coming to an end soon. Its so fast, i'm ageing 1 more year again... haha ... next year i entering adult hood le... So fast .. being a adult is not nice ... so much responsibilities ... no choice .. everyone have to grow up ... the law of the nature...

Alright ... i guess i stopped here then ... even clever people can do stupid things... it aint surprising ....

Saturday, October 06, 2007 10:53 AM

TGIS (Thank God its Saturday)

♥My My ... another week had yet gone by like this ... after next week, i will officially start a new semester in school. If everything goes smoothly, i would have completed my first year freshman in poly after mid february. My gosh, thats so fast, when did i went to Poly just like a freshman ?? not knowing where the places are, making some fast frens ... ahh, times passes so fast ...soon before i know, i will be in NS ... Putting my life in the front line for the country.

Well, yesterday was talking to my officer and my mei, way late into the night. My mei, i dun know what i wana say, but just that i'm disappointed with actions. But nevertheless, i know she is the mei i can trust to do things well. I opened up a career path to her, i told her to think carefully about it, if she is going to take up, i will make sure she do well, even excel over me . Because, i notice she is so much like me, i believe that she can do well too, if she is going to work towards where i am working to.

Well, the previous post, talk alot about money ya? But i have solved everything. I am getting myself sponsored next year, and they will back pay me everything i did not get in the first year. So in short should i get my sponsorshio next year, i will be back paid about $9600. So that shall solve everything. But must be able to get the sponsorship. Finally after dragging here and there, i decided to get bonded. Once bonded i cannot run for 3 years. But i'm fine with it. Bcause 1st year of serving my bond, i can go study for a degree part time at SIM. So after i finish my 3 year Bond, i would end up with a university Degree also. So its not bad. And i estimate i would earn around 2.7-2.8K when i'm 24. Must start Planning for life.

Talking about that, as i said just now, i was talking to my officer, rather, my cell group leader. He is no longer young, 30 plus le. I told him, its time that he concentrate on himself, and start finding a spouse and get married and start a family. He is very nice, especially to us old Boys. Because we are the first batch of Boys he took care. Everytime buy us all and that, treat us eat. Thus i told him to concentrate more on himself. Start saving, so that he can have a family soon. And i also hope to see him start a family soon. Come to think of it, if he start a family within the next few years, then his children will be calling me UNCLE ... T.T my god ... faints ...

Now so noisy. want to sleep also cannot, because outside renovation, still doing the life upgrading, so noisy... wan to go crazy liao la... $%^&*()*&^%$#@#$%^&* later going for BBQ for my sec school class gathering. Yup i planned it, i hope can go well, maybe next year i can sponsor it bah, if i got the sponsorship, and i will still continue to work even after that. i wan to save alot of money. i wan to buy a car. yes, i wan to buy a car after i start working, so this few years must save. die die must. If not how to buy a car ? haha...

well, i tink i stop here le, i only slept for a pathetic 5 hrs plus ... shack siol ...

There is certain truth in some lies, some reasons should not be understood...

Tuesday, October 02, 2007 3:02 AM

Nt Much of a particular... Just Randomly

♥Firstly, i got my baby for a week or more already, honey am i loving it, been playing with it non stop, its actually my new psp slim. i sold off my old one, but i have not recevied full payment for that, i hope my fren wont come and screw me and say no money to pay, cuz my bank is dried. i need to have a few hundred inside !!! Waiting for $150 to be transffered from the hospital, another 170 from my fren who bought my psp, and 30 bucks from a guy whom i took over his work for him ... so his pay is coming to me ... that should amount in total in my bank to 400 plus ... but thats so pathetic, i originally have 5 times the amount of savings ... but now ... its all gone ... even if i can save 80 dollars a mth starting the next semester on, it would only reached 600 plus, i'm still falling short of 4 times the amount.

Things were supposedly to be able to solve, but the bomb shell just came, i got a new manager at work, and the big problem is that he seems reluctant to let me and my colleauges work, mainly those in our age group, this really pose a big threat to me. i estimated that if i were to work for a month, i would most likely to be able to replenish nearly all the money, looking at how the pay is on. all i need to do is 4 camps, and 8 work shops in a mth i would replenih almost all, it would even better if i can do more camps instead. but i won't mind if it is like what i planned. but things seriously is not looking good for me, i need to solve that problem fast or my head will come rolling down real soon.

Let me look back on what i had spend so far. Bike 500, psp,370, hp, i bought 2, 450. payinf for registration and sim card amted to 70 plus total for now is 1400. computer accesories, 100, hp bills, 100, total is 1600 so far. personal needs, 300-500 bucks, plus extra expenditure, another 300 -500 bucks... that is 2400 plus, in actual fact, i should have abt 1100 left
why am i left with only 400 plus, going on to 600 plus, let me jack it up to 800, i'm still 300 bucks short. should ever at this period i am found out, i would ask my sis to help me jacked it to 1300 first, then explained on how i used the money, i believed it will pull me off abit, not totally.

Looking at it, its amazing how money can be depleted so fast, in actual fact, i depleted it arnd may, dragging it till now, amazing, how amazing, i feel the pinch, now the fact that i need money, i cant draw, instead i must save. no choice. i just hope things at the company just go smoothly, at least let me earn back another 1000 bucks, if i can pushed it to 800 plus of saving by next year feb. then i can go learn driving, if was asked why bank so little, driving, the only reason i can save my self is, because driving take alot of money. i will put it at 1800, but i hope i can get it done at 1000 ... Oh dear ... lets pray hard everything will go alright.

Back then, if everything were to go according to my suggestion, nothing would have happened. I said that i wanted to have a seperate accnt to transfer my working pay, but it was rejected, now that things have happened, it becomes my fault, never mind, just have to do my best and all to make sure i can make things back nicely. Earning is hard, spending is easy ... thats so true ... i testify to that.

Looking at the way things are, a world without money is a no, everything now is about money, its a money society now, or sometimes, money first, talk later. Its kinda of sad looking at how much money we need. Imagine you were to buy a 4 room flat now, its abt 300k, installment for 25 years, its a a near 12K a year, 1.2k a mth if lets say i were to have a degree, my pay is probably 2000 plus( fresh graduate). Never mind, let me do a detail planning here, it will shows all.

Grduates with a diploma, with no savings. Start work after NS at 1700 a mth basic pay for a year thats 20.4K, add on with bonuses and stuffs it will be probably another 5K so its 25.K a year
After a year at of working, studying at SIM part time for degree, (lets assume pay does not change) i wil have another 51 K in 2 years plus the 25 K i would have around 54k, by then i would be 25 yrs old. i work for they next 2 years at a pay of 2.3K due to higher qulification and pay increment, and 7K bounuse and stuffs,it would be 69K, add on to the orignal 54K i would have earned 123K, minusing off expenses at 800 a mth, single wat,for the last 5 years it would be 75k left. should i get married by then, assuming that my future wife is also an nurse earning that amt, we would only have 150K, for wedding plus the house, which the down payment is 30K if i'm not wrong. Wedding is expensive, after looking through, it would practically meant that after 5 years of savings, it would be gone after a wedding plus paying of the house. Thats how practical life is, and we would need to drag everything till we are 52 yrs old. Thats not including if we have children, the expenses. Meaning, should i not earn a 5K a mth soely next time, i would not be able to pay for the house and have children. if combine income of husband and wife is around 8K, i think we can only afford a slightly more comfortable life looking at how the society is now.

Money matters, money woes, since ancient times, when does money does not cause worry, troubles ? Its always in place since histroy, French revolution due to the Royalties having too much money enjoying themselves, peasents and civilians poor till they cant havea decent meal a day. Money related crimes. MONEY ALL IS ABOUT MONEY !!!

So practical is it not ? after all entering adult hood, needs you to start planning, i guess i need to ditch my carefree way of living and start living a life where i need to consider before spending. And thinking through, i will, no more changing of handphone as i like, no more this and that. Till i can, haha, life hard reality just came crashing into you once you become an adult, just now was only talking to my fren about the work problem, the conclusion, he can never find other ppl willing to work like we used to be and still be. So be greatful and thankful that we are still willing, but it is only a stepping stone here, our real aim is much higher, by then you the manager will be nothing to our eyes.

Working life to me is tiring definitely, but not as bored as studying, between the work i'm doing now and the work in hospital, hospital is definitely more busy, but still its good, now the work i'm doing, i learn alot and i love to become a trainier, hours are long, but the pay is wonderfully amazing. so hear i am, stuck in between, dun noe where to go, hmm ... lets see how things goes first.

School is starting soon, but the time table is not out yet, thats so stupid, i cant even opt for my electives yet, i have no idea when is it coming, better come fast, if not electives no more, thats the end man. School is starting the second semester, thats so fast, 4 more month and i will finish my first year in poly, in fact it passes real fast. i need to buck up my studies for second semester and pull up my GPA, if not that would spel trouble for me, hais, life so many trouble, aint it irritating ? Come on ... give me a break, studies, work everything, sometimes it seems to be a torment to be human, what is the difference between a human and animal ? We know how to enjoy life, We invent things and etc, but the similar part is, we are all fighting to survive, the survival,wheter human or animal, every each of us be it human or animal will need to worry about our own survival, thus human aint that great after all.

So long never see some of my school mates already, Oh my god, i miss the bastards, the crazy times we spend doing stupid things together. Haha, its just so nice, argh, hope to see that 2 Fuckers soon. alright, i had typed for so long, i guess i stop here already, maybe later when i feel like it, i will post again.

Every living thing is fighting for survival, but in different methods. Stil humans need to fight for their own survival, thus humans are not that great after all. We merely just have the ability to think in a way other living things cant, thats aint special, because if others can think in the way we do, probably, they can do as well.

Oh i miss the fuckers ... lets get together real soon ... and start making a hell load of fun together ... you suckers !!! :D