Saturday, May 31, 2008 7:03 PM

I decided to let everything go.

♥I finally really really made my intentions know. Alot happen ystd. But i dun wana say. Just that i've already clear up my stand. I've really given up. I'm nt bothered. I think its the time of the year where i need to recollect my feelings and thoughts again.

Do those served grow as person?
Do they while being served becomes, Healthier, Freer, Wiser more Autonomous?
More likely to become servants themselves ?

A nice phrase to ponder upon. The qualities of a leader, the heart of a servant.

Friday, May 30, 2008 1:37 AM

What a day.

♥Okay, I just did up the group Blog. Its for the stats project. I have linked it at my links area. Its call Stats 18. Its not all done yet, Just a draft out. So, info will come in soon. And man, finally something that we are good at. Lolx.

And again, someone asked me, And i forgot the person birthday. Actually, I did not forget, I delibrately dun wana say anything. For what. She says, what gotten in me, I would throw that back at you, WHAT THE FUCK HAS GOTTEN INTO YOU ? And she asked, so you are sick of all these, AND YES I'M SICK AND DISGUSTED BY IT. And to think you were saying abt another incident and how disgusted you were, you are going down that path, It irks me, It makes me feel Gross and disgusted. And i argued with myself long time should i bother or should i not, I decided i'll leave you to die for all i care, because i'm not bothered. I wont say a single thing abt it because it aint my business and you aint going to listen. It waste my time, my saliva. As a sayings goes, One does not know pain til one has learn how to fall. And so i'll leave you to fall, fall till you HAPPY. Lets see how it goes, I've prepared myself a cozy couch, a large coke and pop corn waiting for the show to start. A chinese saying was nice, Knowing that there is a tiger in the cave, You still purposely want to venture in. Thats what you are doing. I cant be bothered. I've got alot of things on hand that is worrying me enough, I want one less, and for the case, You can die.

I'm sorry if i sound bad, But thats the fact, You dun wana listen then face the damn consequences yourself, what ever DAMN decision that you make, i'm not going to suffer,i'm not the one coming to harm, so by all means make that DAMN decision yourself, Dun bother asking ppl about opinions when deep down inside you aint gona bother about it. You are just seeking attention. And for that, YOU'RE A BIG TIME LOSER. Choices have consequences, some consequences are some what reversible but some are not, You are the one who is going to live down that pain for the rest of your life if things happen. I'm not, I'm probably living life the way i want, While u living in torment and misery. I'M NOT BOTHERED. And i wont bother to help you either, since you rejected my good intentions, then i will reject your plea for help. Its the same as saying sorry. What is the pt of saying sorry when the harm is done ? Don't commit that damn mistake then no need to say sorry. So why ask for help when you rejected ppl adivce, You are practically walking right into the shit hole.

You said that by telling you, at least you take precaution. Come on la, stop being so niave can. A guy can mask everything abt him when he wants something, I'm a guy, not like He is a guy with penis and I'm a guy without. And he will smoother his way through, and soon b4 you realise, your defence is down. And whatever he tells you will be like verses from the bible to you. Lets hope that whatever i say its wrong then your are SAVED AND SAFE. If i'm right on the nail, Bless You. AND SO PLS DIE, I DUN CARE.

Okay, Its late, I wana read the papers, although its like what time already, I still need to catch up with the world affairs. That guy is a BIG TIME LOSER

Even if the morrow is Barren of Promises, Nothing shall forestall my return.
To be a Hero
You need to have dreams.

Thursday, May 29, 2008 1:03 AM

Don't Bother Asking, When you Have No Intentions of Listening

♥Updating time again. So far so good, I managed to pass my Stats Test, Was looking for a B, but i got a C =( And there goes one module. I need to do well for my project, its 40%, hope can pull up to a B overall. And also i did the nursing lab theory test, its like freaking easy luhh, Its like a test of our yr 1 knowledege.

And somethings i just wana comment, I cant help but to. Sometimes, I would suggest that lecturer shut up rather then scream and scream like so mad women who forget to take their medications. If you observe mistakes, u can prompt, or keep it till the end. DO NOT SCREAM AND SCREAM at the student. The more you scream, the more worked up (scared i mean) they get, the more they screw up, and then u accuses them of being crappy, lousy and stuffs, when 50% of it was due to your Screaming that scares the crapp out of them. I mean, come on, You all probably study pyschology like we are now, but it seems that you lecturers does not seems to be putting it into use luhh, then scrapp that fuck module and save us the trouble of studying it, because i can see that it does not seems to work, from how lecutrers are behaving.

Its so irritating that the lecturer need to scream at you kind of things, Can't you just prompt like, You sure that you're gona do this ? Some thing like that. I can't imagine how they become lecutrers in the first place. And some, deserve to be fired. And i seriously meant what i say, and i wont retract my sentence. Just because that you need to go off or something like that, you fail the student. Its not fair, AND IT DAMN CRAPPY NOT FAIR. everyone is given 30mins to do, yet after 15mins, u gotta go off or some class need to use the room, you fail the student. Its like so UNPROFESSIONAL. And to think, we are taught and talking about professionalism. Actions speaks louder than words.

And i was out with astro boy to cut his hair at Jean Yip CCK, then went to eat botak jones, Good food worth the Money. And his relationship prob has comes to an end, but the aftermath storms are brewing, and i feel that he is not at the fault, Not because he is my friend, But at the way he handle the situation and the way the other party handles the situation, its speaks alot. And i'll like to say, Don't bother about asking for advices or comments, when in the beginning, you have not a slgihtest intention of listening. BECAUSE IT WASTES MY TIME DAMN IT. And since you choose your own path, then all the best, BECAUSE I DUN BOTHER AND I DUN STAND TO LOSE OUT. So don't come crying saying that i've been cheated, because I'll laugh at you first, AND minsd you, I'll laugh damn LOUD AND HARD till i roll on the floor, before i listen to the story. And even if i do, I'll probably listen half heartedly because i know what has happen. We shall see.

Ystd there was a documentary about Sars, 5 yrs after it hits, There is a part about healthcare workers that sets me thinking. There is this wife who ask her husband, director of ICU to resign becasue she is afraid that she will lose her husband. I perfectly understand how she feels given that the children are still so young back then. So i asked myself, Will my spouse ask me to resign from nursing if ever a epidemic like sars hits. Will i be that unlucky one that is to die. Will my family stop me from working. THese questions are hard to answer,but i'll have an answer one day. I guess I'll stop here.

Don't bother asking when you have no slightest intentions of listening. It wastes my time.
Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
Nothing shall forestall my return.
To be a Hero
You need to have Dreams

Monday, May 26, 2008 9:44 PM

When i say

♥And so lets back tracked a litte. Yesterday was out since early morning for some mid year review and meeting to tie up some loop holes and confirm some stuffs. And so everything seems to be running smoothly. Thats a good news obviously.

And so today i did my nursing lab skills assessement test today, 70%. And glad to say i passed. The lecturer say, i gotta pass you cuz you mentioned all the critical points. Like as if i'm supposed to fail . So wth luhh ... So i hope i did well, i hope to maintain my standard of a B for that module. And tomorrow gotta collect my new passport :)

Well tomorrow start school only at 12 ... Happy happy ... Then go collect passport liao jiu go home study ... Cuz wednesday got 2 test ... Stats and nursing lab theory ... Hais ... Man ... So many test ... So one just kill me ... I wish i'm off dead ... Lolx

Later gotta study then sleep ... Tomorrow shiok ... Then after wednesday can relax a little bit ... Lolx ... Man ... Hols are coming ... Am i so waiting for it man ... But it also mean clinical placement :( i so dread it man ... Lolx ... When at attachment wish i got school ... When at school wish i got holiday ... When got holiday wish i was at school or attachment or work ... Lolx ... So damn contradicting luhh ...

Alright ... I'll prolly stop here first ... Later may update again ?

Even if the morrow is barren of promises, Nothing shall forestall my return.

Saturday, May 24, 2008 2:13 AM

My Soul Corrupted by vengence

♥Another late night posting again. Lazy to use my laptop to update, so now using my hp to update.

In a not too long ago post, i said some things in a moment of anger, but now i guess even when i'm now composed, i'll still say the same. With care and concern will comes disappointment. To lessen it. Heck Care . Because of certain issues, i'm dragg back into reflection again. A reflection of my life so far .

Sometimes i do wonder why am i changing, working so hard for, i meant some reasons named are like common, but again, what am i working so hard, and why ? Why am i so sentimental that i get so easily disappointed by ppl whom i care around me ? Why ? Can some one out in this freaking world tell me ? I just want to know why, thats all ...

Sometimes, i rather i do not know certain issues, i know, i'm worried, i'm worried i say, or advice, and when i do that, ppl who do the total opposite, i feel disappointed, sometimes, i ask myself, should i go ahead and laugh OUT loud at my frens who ignore what i said and get themselves into the screwed up situation ? I feel so damn disappointed always, i'm sentimental, i mean, come on, everyone got a soft and different sides of them. I've got one too ...

Next monday is my test week till the following week, after that i'm having 2 weeks holidays and i'll be out on clinical placement. Man, time passes by so fast that i can barely grasps it. Every i have to travel from the west to the north to school and back ... Its tiring, i'm suprised at myself at the so far diligent efforts that i'm putting into my studies knowing how well i dislike to study and how well i'm a slacker ... I'm amazed by the stimulus that is keeping me going .

Next tuesday got to go collect my new passport. I've gotten it replaced. And then sept i going australia. And i've like finally register for my driving thing on thursday ... Its like ... Its been 2 months and its like, woah ... Finally kind of things ...

I wish i'm not the type who is sentimental and care so much for ppl around me ... Should i try hardening my feelings so that i can stop these misery ? Somebody tell me ...

My Soul Corrupted by Vengence.
Nothing shall forestall my return.

Monday, May 19, 2008 12:56 AM

And, Its TitleLESS

♥Okay ... BACK TRACKED. Friday knock off from school at 5, went home and called up merina to meet her for dinner, but she aint hungry so we decided to meet up for coffee and stuffs... I think i met her at 8plus and i send her home at 11 plus while i reach home at 12, just nice b4 the midnight charges kick in. Cuz i took a cab. Lolx. And so we chatted alot, SUANNED her alot ... MAKE FUN of her alot ... LOLX... My specialty.

Sat was supposed to HELP in first aid but i did not go, cuz my problem not solved so i decided not to go. And hell was there alot of things to do. I'm damn worried for my social psychology presentation. The more i read, the more i feel like we are off track. Lolx. See how luhh, i believed we put in our 100% already. We've got loads of things coming up, and its mugging time after tonight sleep. Good thing its a public holiday. Finally a Monday with no school.

And today slacked all day, like siao, cuz Monday is D DAY ... MUGGING !!! so have to enjoy lor ... I think i stop here. Lolx.


When everything is over
Tell me its a nightmare.

Friday, May 16, 2008 12:28 AM

When all is over.

♥Okay, i went to school today, still feeling a little unwell,but now i think i feel so much better. Wahaha. So lets see, what am i gona talk abt today ? I rmb that i got alot to say, but i just seems not to be able to recall, did the Vrial infection got to my brain ? I hope not. Lolx

Okay, School today, as usual, BORING. Lolx. I skipp the last lecture of Research, although the test on that is coming soon too. But i will study, After this sunday, its MUGGING TIME. Yes. And tomorrow and next wednesday is my last lab lessons. Then is the test. Must pass, i dun wan to retake skills lab.I can do it. Jia you.

Okay, I finally rmb what i wana talk abt. Lolx. Today while on the way to school, i saw a crowd gathering outside the MRT station,so i walk past, and a guy is lying there motionless. Then got 2 ppl attending to him, one is a doctor, he dress like one and took out his sethescope, i guess he is maybe happen to be going to work or wat? And so i ask myself, should i stay or should i not ? Its very contradicting, I'm a student nurse, I learnt so much, its like natural for me to go help, but again i ask, As a student, what much can i do. Sad isn't it ? I went off to school, feeling a little guilty.

Next is, I'm ...... going .... to ..... AUST !!!! Lolx, its confirm that i will be going to aust in sept. My dad agress and the lecturer persuaded me to go, so okay, I'm gona fly to aust in sept. I think from 7-14. Lolx. Then guess what, 15th is m attachment, I fly back to singapore, next day attachment. Lolx. Okay luhh. I can take it de. No worries. I'm strong.


Okay, till here.Lolx


Unattainable Dreams are the best.
To be a Hero, You need to have Dreams
Embrace Your Dreams
Protect Your Honour

Thursday, May 15, 2008 12:59 AM

And i fell sick

♥oh crapp, i fell sick, i was not feeling well since tuesday, SO today i fell sick, i slept till 12 then go poly clinic see doctor, i got some viral infection ... Sounds serious, but not really, no antibiotics are given .

And to think that i actually gotta mc myself on the stats module when today is the last topic for the test . I gotta ask my frens to teach me or i'll be screwed if that topic comes out ... Man ... I fell sick at the wrong time. But i feel that its an achievement. This is the first time i see doctor for the year 2008. Haha ... I remembered last year i mc quite often ... Haha ...

Yesterday at night class, did not get to do much, was resting on the bed, i became the "patient" ... I was that sick, after that i cabbed down to bukit batok to give my fren her present ... Talk a little then she send me to the bus stop ... Cuz i sick i go home early :( sorry dude ... I'll make up :) i know you like the present ... So wear it more often :)

Alright, i stop here ... Later classes starts at 8, i still cant sleep as i slept too much in the day ... Haha ...

Unattainable dreams are the best
To be a Hero
You need to have Dreams

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 10:47 AM

Again, How bad can a day get ?

♥My Crapp. I dun know what to say, How bad can a day get ? Today came to school, Then on time, but student card was missing. Guess what, i dropped it on the way to school. I went straight to replace the card when i reach school, and it cost me $6.40. Damn, i dun noe what else to say.

Later still got night class, then rushing back to celebrate some one's birthday, and this type of things happen at the start of the day. What more can i say. It just destroy the mood for the day. Screwed.

I dun wan talk abt it, damn, tomorrow then can collect my card. Shit.

Sunday, May 11, 2008 2:35 AM

I just Dun feel ... Good

♥Was out just now, first to get my bicycle, I left it at my fren de house for 6 mths already. Then just now went out to get my things from bastard. Then he met his gf then i went to take my long due present from someone. After that we sit outside 7-11 and talk talk lor, he also now got relationship problem.Haha. I dun have,i feel so light man. Its not wat luhh, i got ppl i want to know but at the same time ppl must also wan to know me luhh.

I dun have that much time to go and see gals liao lor ... So busy till shit kind of things. Lame Lame Lame. I seriously wonder what i shld type now. Busy is Busy. Sometimes, i do feel kind of lonely, but its okay.

Red Bull plus Vodka = Highest of the Highest Feeling. U feel Shack.
Oh, btw, the word shack means tired after having Sex. Lolx, dun anyhow use, but i dun care. ROFL.

Till here then, tido.


Those Wings, I want them too.

Friday, May 09, 2008 8:57 PM

Machines that works like Human

♥Today was quite a relac day, went to school at 10.20 and finished classes at 1 pm. And so i went back home after that and do some stuffs. So when was in school, was talking to astro boy. He was like telling me that he gona breakup with the gf soon. For certain reasons that he mentioned i agree, and due to sensitivity issue, i wont post it all. But we came to a conclusion, when you're not attach, the guy can relac, chill with fren, go club and drink and do loads of things with frens with no worries. And when you're attached, you gotta restrain and stuffs, its really, you know. There's a price to pay for everything.

And so ah bang like that, its okay, got us brothers, one day we go drink together. And also, dun forget our outing of hunting for nice leather shoes.

Today in class, we have a fun time. I need to teach phonics from here. Lets pronounce this word ANTACID. No, its the way you are prnouncing now, its pronounce as ANTI ACID. ROFL. its actually purely pronounce as ANTACID. But one joker in the class when presenting keep saying anti acid. We were laughing our dick and ass off. And ystd, my fren got bitten by the manequin. ITS ALIVE. ITS ALIVE ! That manequin is the practice dummy we use in school. Haha. Some thing happen obviously. thats why he got bitten, its stupid.

Good news ! I pass my 1st test for the year 2008. A pat on the back. Haha. And i've got some bad and screwed up news. This is my week 4 in poly, in week 6 I've got a presentation to present. Week 7, i got my Nursing lab theory paper, prolly nusring lab skill test and research methd test. Week 8 I've got bio pract test, another presentation and statistic test. Screwed. And after that is holiday which i most likely is gona work and after that i going for clinical placement for 4 weeks. The school thinks we are machines. Yes we are, machines that works like human. Lolx.

Today i burned a hole in my pocket,but its okay, for a good fren of mines. Her birthday is coming in 4 days time and i decided to buy her a present. And the price is over half a hundred bucks. And the best part was, its hard to find a nice one in the category of prezzie that she say i can fufill, cuz its either crapp or ex. And so it took me quite a while today to choose with my juniors, (ladies obvious) and vigrous consultation with my ladies class mate over the phone. And so i bought one that is nice and simple. She is a simple gal, not really complicated as far as i know her till now. ( Unless she got split personality. OMG.) And i'm gona do some nice nice surprise for her on tuesday. Its a promise. :)

As much as I want to post the photo of the present here, I cant. If not, it spoils everythng for tuesday. I guess i stopped here. Till then.

RIP = REST IN PEACE ? nil. is Rest in Pussy ==> by Sly.
and i decided to come up one
RIB = REST IN BED ? nil. is Rest in Boobs. Lolx.


Hey, Would you say I've Became a Hero ?
Embrace your Dreams
Protect Your Honour
To be a Hero
You Need to Have Dreams

Tuesday, May 06, 2008 11:27 PM

Its Crazy

♥Okay, for a while did not update. Firstly I'm freaking busy and tired. School is like Crazy. They think students are machines or robots. Haha. But i'm fine, for my future. When the going gets tough, the tougher drinks Guiness. Haha. NO GUINESS. I wan my ice wine. Haha.

Well, loads of test are coming up. Pray hard can do well. Projects are also Crashing like Mad. i was taking 8 modules originally, but got 2 modules split into half, eg code 1234, then its like 1234.1,1234.2 And so if you think its splitted into 1/2, No, the content is as good as 1 whole module. So i got 2 of that, so its like 10 modules. We're machines.

Nvm. I send my phone for repair and now everything seems fine. Yup. They change the whole LCD screen for free. What more can i ask for ? And everythinf is working well. I tot my batt spoil, but because my scren spoil, so it took alot of energy. Drained it. So now everything is back as b4.

I'm dead tired. Stop here.



Hey, Would You say that I've Became a Hero ?
Embrace Your Dreams
Protect Your Honour