Sunday, April 29, 2007 6:13 PM

had a fun time just now

♥well ... was at at JE library doing my project ... with brother and 2 other fella, managed to complete most of it ... then after left one gal at library, me go home bathe and change, then brother send the gal ( his one la) home .. to put books then we go marina south ... en route picked up one other guy. then jiu go marina south meet the rest of the ppl lor..

then reached there ... we eat ... talk .. scold and play with each other. than i ordered a bottle of Tiger and drank almost all by myself ... felt abit hot ... then face turn abit red... after which go arcade ... then they play lan ... then me dun wan play ... so accompany brother de gal play lor ... then go toilet .. she scared ... so had to stay outside the toilet ... then later i heard ... *ploop* ... and follow by ... argh !! wtf ?? knn ... $%^&*)(*&^%$$%^&*()&^%$###@@!!@#&&**%$##@$% ... my fone drop into the toilet bowl ... i was like ... erm ... =.= ?!

so now that fella phone wit me lor ... loan her mines ... then tomorrow go repair ... i cant do much now ... then next event ... this DAU PUI ... not me ... he sat one a plastic chair .. can tell quite weak de la ... lousy ... then he was scolding some stuff ... serve him right la ... after finish scolding
the leg break ... i mean the chair ... we were all laughing till siao can ... really can roll on the floor sia ... steady men ... then he tried to get up ... abit diff ... cuz he got stuck in the chair also .. haha ... laugh till peng ...

well mainly that lor ... then grabb a cab back to JE ... arnd sec sch there de prata shop ... ate ... then send chin how gal home ... then took cab ... chim how topang me home ... then thats all lor ... mainly that la ... today real fun ... but bro tomorrow go thailand ... sian ... bored liao la... and and and ... friday going to celebrate brother de sis birthday ... FREE FLOW ... FOC ... haha ...



today was real fun .. hope we can get together again like this ... bro ... take care ... see u on wed ... and and and ... i may had lost feelings for her ... it may be good news to her ...

Thursday, April 26, 2007 2:18 PM

In school doing blogging ... the school gal incidence just reminds me how fragile life can be

♥the school gal who went into the the canal to pick her phone and ultimately got herself drown, really reminded me that how fragile life can be. It brought me back to 3 years back, where i lost a fren that i ahd went through so much to saved.

Thinking back then and looking at the news, i asked myself, why is life so fragile ?? will mines be like that too ?? and the ans and evaluation of it, i dun noe, no one can predicts what will happen. but i did tell my classmates that among my siblings, i may have the higher chance of meting a mishap and passed on. Health care workers so long as there is an epidemic like sars and stuff, we are ront line workers and front line likely victims, because we always get in contact wit it. So i do wonder, what if something like sars happen again ?? and its when i am wroking as a nurse ?? life can be so saddening.

Both incidence that i had know, are results or once impulse action , or i brand as stupidity, i'm sorry to use tha word ... i do ... but comes to think of it ... it seems that the life should not be lost like that. here i am in the front line, learning how to rescue one's life and take care of them, i saw incidence like that happen, it do really sadden and pulled me down... sometimes things just happens so unexpectedly.. i did constantly remind myself tat, things are unpredicteable, and that its easy for me to be gone just like that.. but even with the constant reminders that i am teling myself, am i ready for it when the days comes?

in my life so far, i had saw 2 deaths that should not even happen in my contxt, both are suicide cases, and both ppl, are ppl that i noe i treasure as a fren and older brother... but whats the point of saying all these when they all already left ?? will i ever see them again ?? that i wont know... its just so complicated..

well ... thats life i guess ?? if there is living there is dying ... if there is life there is death ... is just a matter if time... sooner or later ...



will i be prepared to leave when i am being called ?? i dun noe ...
ps. sorry for scolding her that much ... well call me jerk for all you want ... but i am concerned ... take care ... LIFE IS FRAGILE ...

Wednesday, April 25, 2007 5:01 PM

School ends early later ...

♥going to school later ... starts at 10 ... ends at 12.55 .. haha ... no break at all ... its 3 hrs of lessons straight ... then later going AMK hub ... to buy shoes .. haha ... then maybe buy ear phone and some other stuff .. then maybe going to meet up my squad officer ... he wants to talk to me about some stuff ..

yesterday starts school at 11 ... so was alright ... but i overslept .. sian .. then rushed like siao ... nearly in time to take attendance ... haha ... so good .. then lectures here and there ... till 6 .. went to 320 ... meet up wit how and the rest .. ate dinner ... i went home .. how and the rest went out ... then tomorrow we going AMK hubb ... haha ... wednesday is our off day ... but heng la ... schedule not so pack le ...

poly life so far is not as wonderful as i always thought it had been ... well .. its only the starting ... lets see how it goes ... well .. wana slep already ... dun wana type le ...

Tuesday, April 24, 2007 4:43 PM

Sick of ULTIMATE FUCKERS

♥damn disgusted abt it sia ... come to think of it .. yy are these fellas commenting so much ?? CHAO CHEE BYE ... IS MY LIFE ... GET IT YOU FUCKER ... KAN NI NA BU CHAO CHEE BYE ... i will fucked you back if i ever see you ... KAN NI NA ...
CUM LAN PPL ... just dun understand what we are thinking ... think that by reading our blog .. they noe us well enuff to comment everything ... YY DUN YOU GO COMMENT ON THE WORLD AFFAIRS ??

DAMN du lan about this type of ppl niah ... disgusted by it ... low self esteem ... low courage ... everything also low ... LOW CLASS OR IS YOU NO CLASS !!!!

its my blog ... get it ... totally disgusted by this type of ppl ... PUKES ...ya ... friday ... after going out wit my friends .. and one special gal ... haha ... not really special ... just a friend ... then went home lor ... after sending that gal home ... cuz so late le ... send her home ... dun later something happen to her .. i cannnot hold credibility to that ... well if you guys think is the usual her i'm talking about ... i'm sorry .. she's out of the context ...

then got one of my friend ... dun wan say who or who la ... got gan relation de... lazy to say ... she asked me ... you and that gal together ar ... i was like ... erm ... NO?! Cuz she say we are like together like that ... haha ... dun noe ?? dun ask me ... i dun noe ... so luan ... see lor ... dun wan comment on that for now ... just let nature takes its course...

Shit .. the main point i wana say is after all the hassels .. i went to my buddy house ... to stay for the night ... in teenage context is call *ton* ... then went out lor ... i went to drink ... and got myself in a terrible state .. haha ... really ... drank le ... go eat ... when was near my buddy house ... i da boleh tahan ... i told him ... bro ... cannot la .. really wan vomit le la ... so was like going puke ... he helped me settle the rest .. he was being kind ... just gentely patting my back ... then i go ... u noe ... the rest i wont need to mention ... its a little gross ... in short ... i vomitted out what i ate less then 15 mins ... what a waste to eat ... so went his hse ... practically hit the bed and slept ... ( i din sleep on the same bed as my buddy ... seperate ... in case some are wondering what happen that fateful day ) then after abt 3 hrs of sleeping journey ... i got woken up ... my buddy sis and cousin came ... and guess what ... my budy cousin also vommited before coming ... she vommited outside MOS ... haha ...we were good frens that day ... haha ... so after a while ... went back to sleep .. then suposedly want wake up at 7 plus ... then woke up at 9.30 ...

So rushed home ... becuz daddy din noe i not at home .. so must be home b4 he wake up ... so rushed home .. also bcuz laptop coming mah .. need to be at home ... then laptop came ... wee .. so now i'm using my laptop ... and and and .. schedule so far not that packle ... a little relaxed liao ... wee... gtg .. wana sleep ... even school starts late ... still wana sleep like a pig .. byee ...

SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU ARSE HOLES (if things really goes as wat my friend asked ... then fate is playing on me ... but she is a realy nice gal ... xp)

Saturday, April 21, 2007 4:00 PM

Hurts ... HURTZ !!! You totally hurt me with your response !

♥You really hurt me ... It so painful ... I feel that the tears that i had shed that day ... The night that i could not sleep over worrying ... Is a total piece of shit ... Is like crapps ... Making me like an idiot ...

i'm not a piece of dust on your clothing to brush off ! I fucking hell got feelings!!! Just in case you thought i never had ... I just wanted to care ... But you just brush me off ... I'm hurt ... I really Am ... I'm speechless ...

hurts ... Its all hurtz ...

Thursday, April 19, 2007 3:43 PM

it makes me realise how much i really love you and how much you meant to me.. cuz i teared for you ...

♥i felt so uneasy the whole day... went out to school without my ring for the first time ... then arrived in school early even though i set off later then usual ... something was bound to happen ... since everything went wrong today ... i felt so energectic when i din rest well for the past 2 days ... and something terrible happen ... and it hit me ... i might have lost her today in the morning ...

i really feel like crying while typing this post ... i shld be sleeping now ... for tomorow my class starts at 9 and end at 5 ... and i need wake up early ... cuz school is far had to travel for long time ... it occurs to me ... today may be the day ... where i will be kicking myself and cursing myself ... for not doing something ... cuz a damn accident nearly happen to her ... i dun noe in details what happen ... but i just knew ... she was lucky to have escape it ... i hope she will tell me what happen ... just assure me that she is fine ... cuz i'm veri stress by my school work ... and now ... i'm so tired .. but i cant sleep ... cuz my mind is just thinking if she is alright ... if she is okay ... i'm so unsettled ... my eyes popped out when i read the post ... i nearly faint ... i was gasping for air .. i was saying ... " oh my god ... wat the f**k ??" i'm just repeating that all over agian .. .that my mum asked me wat happen ...

gal ... i knew the seriousness of it ... i had cheated death once too ... i know it too ... i'm sorry ... i'm sorry ... i just want to know what happen ... sorry for asking ... but i do really wana know ... i regretted not going to school today ... i regretted not going back when asked to ... cuz i wana have time for myself ... cuz of my selfishness ... i din even know that something happen ... and funny thing is that ... she said the whole school knew ... yet no one came to tell me ... u got me into a frenzy ...

now that this had happen ... then i notice ... how much i was actually dependent on her ... though we had not been commuinicating much recently ... but now i know ... how much she really really meant to me and how much i really really care ... cuz i always appears not to ... i always put up that ego ... to ignore her when i see her ... i regretted ... i know how much i love her ... cuz i am tearing soon ... cuz my eyes are wetting already ... bucause i'm just so afraid ... she may be just gone like that ... i'm scared ... I SERIOUSLY AM !!!

i tink i need to rest too ...before i can take another shock ... i hope it wont affect my mood for lectures tomorrow ... i really love you ... take care ... its only now that i really want to tell u face to face ... how much i love you and how much you meant to me ...

p.s i bought a new laptop ... coming in a few days time ...

Sunday, April 15, 2007 6:18 PM

Bored

♥i'm buying new laptop ... my current laptop cannot use nia ... so buy new one ... in short... 2 laptops ... haha ... and i'm damn sian diao ...

my time table sux like siao ... wth ... damn sucks sia ... no time to play ... dun wan update liao ...

Saturday, April 07, 2007 4:00 AM

Some physical pain cant be compared to pain of losing you ...

♥din update on what i wana update just now, cuz something else was more impt, so i decided to comment on it... well ... thats it folks ... her hp line got CUT ... well ... she say she sort of hate her parents now.. i mean i dun blame the parents ... well i'm just trying to be fair here ... do look at your bills .... i myself got a rude shock when you tell me ...

the dumbest thing was ... i was thinking of getting a second line for her ... wat the heck .. looking at that ... i tink i will die ... so i rather not too ... but that means .. the most convinient way of contacting her is gone ... she is hardly online ...even if she is ... i also wont be there ... i mean when she is online i'm usually out ... sad ... how ... sad ar..

well ... now that things hd cropp up ... i also dun noe what i can do now ... i gotta go rack my brains now .. update later ...

i miss you ...where are you ??

Friday, April 06, 2007 3:49 PM

♥HEAR YA HEAR YA ...

Something wonderful happen outside my house just now, heard so noises and went out to check, saw a primary school boy climbed onto the railings. My, am i shocked, to see that, so i quickly went back in to get my mum and sis out, i'm afraid that the boy might do something out of the normal.

I decided to get the boy off the railings, my if he accidentally slipped ... he will find the floor coming to his face at a fast rate, some more at the 11th floor, i don't want to see what happens later. So i did alot of coaxing and hoaxing, but with no valid, so i decided to go into the house and ask who's child is this. By the way, my that neighbour house operate a gambling den, heard what they got licence, so everynight there will be ppl gambling there. So i went in and asked, it was after the third time then the mum replied, its my child, don't care him, he is like that de, and she continued with her game of majong.

MY DEAR HOLY GOD, what the heck had just happen ?? I myslef is trying to get things clear, Your son is out there, seemingly on suicide verge, you as a mum tell me nothing la, no problem de. What i Can't understand is why is your gameof mahjong more important then the life of your son? Then my question to the mum is, for what in the first place, gave birth to your son ?? What i am so saddded is, that son is so sensible, he hated his mum gambling, yet the mum DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT !!! He is already giving you notice that he hate it, he is showing you with actions, but why just can't the mum wake up ??? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST WAKE UP YOUR STUPID IDEA ?? what if one day, you hear "POOM" you rushed out, and you looked down, u saw a small boy's body, what is your reaction ?? PLEASE DO NOT CRY, for i wil be laughing at you. Readers, say I'm evil for all I care, because, for what you cry in the first place when you do not even bother ?? When I had to asked 3 times before someone replied me whose son is it, when the reply i got was, he is like that, leave him alone. MY GOD, DAMN YOU, I as an outsider can feel for the child, you as a mum, what are you doing ??

What happen next was even worst, it totally disgust me, that i wanted to vomit out what ever i ate, i never seen such a horrible mum in my entire life. The mum came out only after she noticed a few people are standing there, mainly me, my sis, my mum, and one neighbour. So the "wonderful" mum came out and grabbed the boy by force and bring him down, what if you lose grip? The poor boy might fall to his death, He is struggling mind you. After Bringing the child down, the mum strated beating the child, GOD DAMN YOU, he is already so pissed with you gambling, and you still beat him ?? what a "WONDERFUL" mum are you. That boy then said, let me die, you don't care, this is it, the mum took the head of the boy and really wanted to smash his head against the wall. I had never seen such a "WONDERFUL" mum in my life. I feel sad for the boy, I felt so sympathatic for the boy, He is so mature and able to think, he dislikes his mum gambling, yet the "WONDERFUL" mum fails to see that. I don't want to see another innocent life, one that is so sensible and mature to die. If given a choice for me to decide, i would say. THE MUM.

But this incident brings back to the IR question again, even with these small little things in the neighbourhood, it already create such a commotion, what about the IR? I do agree that the financial prospect of what the IR will bring is good, it helps the economy, it helps to create more employment, but my question is, what about the social aspect ?? Will we see the type of case i saw today more often ?? I do not hope so. If We can really be 100% SURE that we will not get that much of social issue, then I am fine with the IR. But for now, it seems that things may not be going that smooth. Something my parents taught me since young, 10 times you gamble, 9 times you lose. And something I had learnt, DO NOT TELL YOURSELF THAT YOU ARE PLAYING SMALL AND ONLY A FEW ROUNDS, BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, YOU ARE PLAYING BIG AND ALOT OF ROUNDS, BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, YOU HAD LOST EVERYTHING !!!

Gambling will cause you to lose everything, I pity the boy. May some kind soul help the boy. And may some one up high above, do something to wake the mum.THE BOY IS INNOCENT. MAY GOD BLESS HIM.

Thursday, April 05, 2007 4:17 PM

Lost 1/4 of wishdom .. Plucked out wishdom tooth

♥Today when to Pluck out my wishdom tooth... Cuz i got swollen gums yesterday ... then never improved ... today morning was even worst ... pain till i wake up ... then go dentist ... she say is my upper wishdom tooth ... thats casuing the lower gums pain ... so need to pluck out the top wishdom tooth ... remove the source of trouble ... so pluck lor .. i was injected 5 times of the annestatic ... then she start liao lor ... GUM PAIN SIA ... then keep bleeding till just now then stop .. about nearly 10 hrs ... now stopp le ... not that pain la ... still can feel la ...

Then i tried smsing her ... ai ya ... still the same ... cannot reply ... da boleh tahan her sia .. then tomorrow need go scold ppl ... then like that .. sad ar ... nvm la ... hope see her tomolo ... she will wen hou me ... hais .. abit pain la ... not so jia lat ... but the lower gums are infected .. so now given medication to cure the lower gums infection lor ... if cannot ... next week wednesday go back for follow up ... if need to ... may need do surgery to remove the lower wishdom tooth ... cuz the lower one, not fully grown ... so need to remove it with surgery ...

if really need to do surgery ... need suffer for one more week ... then wednesday somemore ... jia lat la .. friday i got orientation ... then cannot go ... if got the surgery .... hais ... sad la ... later the boys better dun make me go mad ... other wise later talk half way ... blood spit out ... wth ... haha ... lets hope tomorrow would be better la ... sad sad sad ...

Dun wan type le la ... not in mood ... hope to see her tomorrow ... and must go collect the pair of rings la ... if not no time le la ... I miss you la ... ai si ni le la ... MUAWKS ...

Tuesday, April 03, 2007 4:13 PM

Kicking some asses soon

♥alright ... later gotta go kick some ass ... yup yup ... time to go and train and kick the boys ass ... their drill suck like manure ... wahahaha ... got some one to help me train the sec one ... i take the seniors ... combine training overall is i take ... and i'm sure i am gona kick their ass ... wahaaha ....

i'm still very happy sia .. dun noe why ... no la ... probably cuz got talk to her lor ... wahaha... see ... talk to me more la ... make me more happy ... wakakaka ... i miss you nia ... wana see you tomorrow la ... XIANG SI NI LE LA ... wahahah ... ya yaya ... must go get my ring ... hmm ... should i get one for her ?? i tink get it ... then asked ... will you be mines ... wahaha ...

then later need go HQ ... change boots for one of the boy ... even b4 wearing jiu spoil le ... Gum jia lat can ... then not buying laptop till the current one i'm using spoil ... but soon la ... the laptop 4 years old liao ... very old le lor .... got a few problem liao lor ... screen flashing abit here and there ... when spoil then change ... probably by then ... is windows vista le ... my school damn slow lor ... other ppl using vista ... still offer xp ... stupid ... wait till next semester then buy ... probably jiu SHIOK AR !!!!! wahahahaha ....

okay la .... wan sleep liao .. other wise later the construction noise very fan ... i slept at 4 am yesterday ... tmd ... 9 am like that jiu kena wake up ... damn du lan la ...going sleep le ...

i wana sleep liao la ... gal i noe u sleeping now la .. sleeping like pig ba .. haha ... no offence ... miss you la ... hope to see you later ... MUAWKS !!! AI SI NI LE LA ... lovees ...

Monday, April 02, 2007 5:06 PM

Bored

♥i'm bored .. really ... now is tiring ... going sleep soon le ... haha ... happy nia ... just no managed to talk to her on msn ... wa kao .. i dun noe wat she do la ... sent so many sms ... 1200 sms can ... its excluding her original free sms that the service provider offer ... wa seh ... she damn steady la ... me max was only 1100 including the free sms ... wa seh .. she pro la ... thats what i love about her ...

then she say she like being gong and blurr .. wa seh ... makes me crazy men ... she is making me feeling so energise ... wa seh ... u really make me wana love you more and more ... i wana love you ... wa kao ... haha ... damn siao la ... then saw her on friday night ... cuz she having camp in school ... i was in school too ... my boys gona have competition .. so slept in school ... i din sleep at all ... partial reason was to wake my boys up ... another ... cuz i noe she's in school ... so i dun wana sleep ... hoping that things will be fine even after i left school when she is still sleeping ... yup yup ... after i left school with my boys ... a few hours later ... they woke up liao ... haha ... ya ... just wana make sure everything turns out okay ... since she is there ... the more i wana stay up to make sure everything is alright ...

i wana sleep soon ... gal ... make sure u're alright ... i'm sorry that i cant be there ... but u noe wat .. i will be there when u need ... I lovee you ... u makes me go crazy ... love u being gong ... love you being blurr ... MUAWKS !!!