Wednesday, January 30, 2008 11:35 PM

Why Emotions are tormenting, lets destroy it.

♥Hi blog, lets kill all emotions shall we, i aint liking what i'm feeling now. I dun noe why, emoing just crept in like a sudden heart attack. I really wonder what happened. COME ON, WHAT IS CAUSING ME TO NT SLEEP PEACEFULLY EVERY NIGHT ? GOD DAMN IT, I WANT TO KNOW.

I wish i had really know, i dun like it, prolly that i shld start doing something abt it. Just tell me, when will everything end ? Promise me, that you will hold on to me when i fall, promise me that u will dry my eyes when i tear, promise me that u will be there for me, when all i need is a hug, promise me that you aint going to leave me after all you had done.

I wana know i really wana know, its complicated. Life is getting so much more complicated when you grow old, can i dun grow old ? CAN I STOPPED GROWING UP ? CAN I DUN HAVE SO MUCH RESPONSIBILITIES ?

I'll leave it here, Damn it.

Saturday, January 26, 2008 2:52 AM

And i want to sleep.

♥ALright, i really want to sleep now, but i am doing some work, some more i at camp cannot sleep well also. I wish i had not come for the camp and slept at home. I'm really dead tired. I went for the interview, seemingly nt too bad, but still i need to wait for a reply in 2 weeks time. I gotta search for my medical report and faxed it in. Oh God, bless me that i can find it.

I wana go home after the bbq later in the evening, if nt i'm not going to go school on monday.I guess i'll probably stopped here.



I miss you all these while. Tell me you will follow, and i'll bring you where ever i go, i promise.

Monday, January 21, 2008 11:34 PM

If, only when there is a IF.

♥If, only when there is a IF. Yes. Alright. I dun noe wat to type. I went late for class, supposedly just nice on time, but i noticed that my student card was with my fren, and he came later then me. And thats it. i kena, I WAS LATE.

Now, something get on my nerve. I cant stand talking to ppl whose eng is really pure shit. It gets on my nerve. Still, ppl does not bother to do anything to improve. Thinking that everyone is goan explain to the simplest. FAT HOPE AND WAIT LONG. PLS GO IMPROVE YOUR BLOODY ENGLISH OR I'LL NOT ENTERTAIN YOU.

Destroy my day just when i'm about to sleep. Irritating.



If i dun keep my promise, will you hate me ? If i left without a goodbye, will you search for me. Sorry seems to be the hardest word. I wana noe, where do i stand in your heart. So i can bring you to every where i go.

1:14 AM

Where Do i stand. In your heart ?

♥Ho Ho .. its monday morning rain is nt falling, steal some shade share so hair, haha ... thats so crapp. Its monday morning, it meant, NO MORE PLAYING. hais ... i need to study, crapp.

Huntered on friday till sunday, obviously nt bad. But i'm fine. later got school at 11, i'm going to sleep soon. Where do i stand in your heart. I wonder.

Short post. Till here. ITS DAMN SHORT ...



If i left without a goodbye, would you miss me, if i do not keep my promise, will you hate me? Tell me where do i stand in your heart. Because, i wana bring you along, to where ever i go.

Saturday, January 19, 2008 2:15 AM

I need Rest, seriously.

♥Oh crapp, i'm so tired out recently, after this sunday, its study time again , =( I dun like to study, but i have no choice but to. I need to study hard, improve my results, and be the best of wat i can. I'm sad, i need to lose weight, or i'll have employment problem soon. #$%^&*(&%^&^#%$#^%&**&&^ thats so 124564ABCDEFG ... I shant waste my little energy i left scolding.

Next week got camp, but i going one day only, i need to study. Surprisingly the likes of me wanting to study, man, thats so ... Amazing, knowing how damn a slacker i am, i want to study. But still no study = I DIE. thats so simple. Poly life is still no fun to me. But never mind, its like another 2 more years to go. 2007 flew so fast soon b4 i noe, i'm going NS. Oh, i really decided, i will move to aust once the time is right. Yes, once i get my bond, i serve 3 yrs, while serving 3 yrs, i pursue a degree, after that 3 yrs, i'll leave for aust to study again, after that i'll probably settle down there. Its rather fast, by 25 i'll probably not be in singapore anymore ? I'm already 18, i need to plan ... If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

Oh, SGH called me today, to arrange a time to for interview on my sponsorship thing. I'm still waiting for the reply. Goody good good ... Once i get it... HOHOHO ... HAHAHA... HEHEHE... tadah ... RICH ! @_@

Okay till here... I'll rest soon.

If i just left without a sound, will you miss me ? Will you blame me for not keeping my promise ? Everything is so vague, lets clear things soon. Where do i stand in your heart?

Wednesday, January 16, 2008 1:52 AM

And all the commotion is over

♥Alright, i finish my testS !!! fianlly can rest le ... i'm gona die soon ... nvm about that, after this i got my exams coming in 3-4 weeks time ... need start studying after end of the week.

School ending again, and i'm going yr 2 !!! I going to take my basic theory soon, then start my driving lessons and get my licence !!! I wana drive to school lor, save time, just spend abit of money on petrol fees. I dun mind driving pick up to school, cuz its diesel engine, its so much cheaper too :D ... at days where the pick up need go malaysia then borrow my uncle car lor ... my budget, 150-200 bucks for a mth of petrol/ disel. If going to exceed, take MRT ... bo bian, i nt so rich ...

Alright stop here then ... If the world do comes to an end soon ... will we leave without a goodbye ?

Tuesday, January 15, 2008 1:19 AM

If I left without saying goodbye ... Silent Disappearence...

♥Today, my test surprisingly went quite well. I passed the module which i have the high chance of failing. And the best part is, those hard working fellas who went in before us did not make it. I feel so bad and sorry for them, they work so hard, yet they did not make it, and its us the slackers that got through, sometimes its just so ironic. The irony is, out of 6, only 3 pass, and the 3 that pass are the only 3 guys in the grp, which is me and the other 2 bastards, the best part is this, of the 3 of us, we got the same qn. Abdominal system. Oh crapp, the lecturer was like, "again" ???? haha. straight for 3 person she test all doing the same thing. But still i did better as usual, i'm weaker in theory, but i'll screw the others in practical assessment.

Life Science, was nt too difficult nor too easy, its manageble in short. Its open book test, i guess i should nt score too badly. If i score every module a C+ and above this sem, my overall GPA for yr 1 should be 2.2-2.5 ... not of the best, but still its good.

I'm really tired out these days, since dec holidays till now, i havent really rested properly. I hope i can carry on ... I aint getting support ... nvm ... everyone is busy with our own work, i feel, i'm drifting away from all my frens in sec school ... how i miss them ... till here then ... later got bio practical, gotta study ...

To believe that He had someone for me, to believe in that, she will come, but is she the one that i though she is ?

Sunday, January 13, 2008 1:07 AM

A day of boredment.

♥Today was rather bored. I spent my morning to early afternoon studying, and the rest of the afternoon playing to night, when i'm supposed to be studying. Distraction are plenty. Mainly my psp. Oh Crapp, i gotta make sure i at least read through my Life science modulee, even though it is open book test, still i need to know where to look for info, oh crapp, its like study 3 modules. Oh God, lets hope i can.

Attended my cousin wedding dinner yesterday, Not too bad. Well it always comes to a sensitive question when you grow older. Especially when you''re like 18. Your aunty and uncle will start asking, Boy, when you going to bring you girlfriend for us to see. Hais, obviously i kena ystd. I hope i wont get it every year, or i'll start to stop going to do chinese new year house visiting.

Well, Life as usual still boring. Well life had toned down alot for me. But i'm getting used to this low profile life. I think i have too, we dun get to have high profile life always. I do miss my hetic and crazy days, but still as i said, i've grown older, its time to grow up.I've got more responsibilities on my hand, thats the price to pay for grwoing up. Ahh ... how i miss my sec school days, those so called care free days ... Man i do miss it.

Well so be it, lets enjoy "adult"hood i guess, i'm just a semi adult not a full one. But still to me, so long you're liable for you own actions by law, you're an adult. And 18 happen to be that age. Oh crapp.

I think i'll stop here, and go study, probably play a little later and go off to sleep. Till here. I'll wait, and see ...

Thursday, January 10, 2008 11:04 PM

When you grow old, its a diffrent story.

♥I'm back :) Well, as usual, said wanted to study, but did not study much, meaning tomorrow must study, if not i'm gona die real hard. When you grow old, its another story.

It aint easy to commit yourself to so many things in life. Thats some lessons that i learnt from all these yrs. I got studies, family, BB, frens, work and many more to handle, some times i think i have to reprioterise my impt things. Studies are never easy, it has never been. Poly aint easy, i used to think that poly was very easy going life, but no it is not. Poly is very far distributed. There are only 5 poly available and there are all spread across north south east west. But again, the course you wana go determines which poly you would go. My frens and passer-by who chance upon this, Pls do not think that you can fall back on a very High pointed course which you think is easy. I'll tell you, it will be total opposite.

I've got frens who said, nvm la, never do well in o's at least got nursing 28 pt to go ... I'm studying nursing, and i can tell you nursing is not a course that reflects the point entry system. its not as it appears to be a 28 point coure, it will kill you as it is killing me now. I'm still liking the course, but its really heavy, i've frens who cant cope and drop out of it, i've ppl still struggling and coming to terms with it. Lucky for me, i'm improving my resutls, and i will definitely maintain it.

Dun come to nursing just because you have no where to go, but come to it because you wanted to. Its a job that rewuire you to have a passion for it. I love nursing, its fun. Also poly is not like secondary, you can so many sec school to choose from in your neighbourhood, but poly no. make the right decision, or you will be spending 2 hrs going to school, in short if you gotta spend 3 hrs on transport, you jolly well wate the time all. I've got frens studying in TP living in Jurong. Its crazy. For me to get to NYP, it takes 1 hr the least to go. I've no choice since the course i want is best at NYP.

Come to look at it, 48 days and i'll turn 18, sounds like a great age, but it is not. it is a age where all responsibilities are given to you, you are now counted as an adult, you're liable to go to jail and receive canning. Yes, no doubt 18 allows you to drink, smoke drive and wat ever, but all these comes with a great price and heavy responsibilities.

Think twice about every decision made, once made some can never be changed, some can be change but at a price. Be it choosing the course you're going, your career or wat... think carefully. If you need help, tagg me and i'll get back to you asap. Once again ... start thinking early before you get it too late.

Its time to go off i guess ... cannot be late for tomorrow class, or lecturer is really going to mark us absent ... hais ... till here

Monday, January 07, 2008 1:01 AM

First post of 2008

♥Hi, its my first post for yr 2008. another year had gone by and i had grown one year older again. thats real fast, gosh, 18 do sounds like a great age. Thats nt the main pt.

I just update abit before i continue again, i just fixed a desktop up, as my bro is 50% done with shifting out, so i fixed a desktop and i'm proud to say, i fixed almost everything except for abit, hehe ... first time and it turn out quite sucessful. Well, my laptop, its time for you to rest too, u had been operating like a desktop since u came ... haha ... let the desktop do the work. Well, i gotta to increase my hard drive space, cuz my desktop is running on a 80gb hardisk ... i'mm buying a 120gb hard disk and input in it ...

Okay thats all ... and i got a PDA ... my bro found his after dun noe like howm many years ... and its still working ... so i took to use it ...


Maybe i should treat u nicer i guess ... it takes time to change, but i will ... i'm sorry ...