Thursday, July 19, 2012 1:09 AM

Rantings yet again

♥It has been a long time, I've decided I need to rant some issues within me. Firstly, I gave up seeing my world in your eyes. It seems like you didn't see yours in mine. It is a pity but things would have not been any better should it dragged and stayed on. So let us be mature adults and leave it there and that. Adequate explanations and answers have been given on my part, I am fine if you could not give me yours. Let's not make things worse then it needs to be. Blessings to you no matter what endeavours you undertake in the future. Secondly, I think there is a need for certain people to realise that RESPECT does not comes with the title, position that you hold with. It is to be earned. It doesn't matter if you're the manager, the commander or even a parent, respect still needs to be earned. Parents can't just think that they should be respected just because they are parents, but you need to earned it. If so happen you are the fud up shit kind of parent, trust me, you will never ever have the respect even if you demand, especially, when the child has grown up to be an adult, able to distiguish from right and wrong, you are so not getting any. Demanding it doesn't help the situation either, it just turns people off even further then it needs to. Come to think of it, parents may have even scolded about each other and how lousy the other person is to the child. It is not advisable because of this picture I saw on facebook, and frankly, it makes so much sense, that I feel some people just can't understand such simple stuff. I am personally going through that phase and I can tell you, things are worse then it needs to be. We must learn to forgive and we need to realise that pride isn't going to do us any good. Pride can't earn you money, Pride cannot feed you and Pride of course isn't going to help you in a legal divorce case. Humility on the other hand will help so much more. We need to learn how to swallow our own pride, learn how to say sorry, and saying sorry doesn't even meant that you are wrong, it can simply meant that you value the relationship more then your pride. Prideful man will fall, and it always does. These are such simple life values that some people cannot understand, or rather put into action. NATO (No Action Talk Only), happens to someone whom I know very well, one who can articulate that one should live life in a certain manner but when you look at that person, they are not even practicing it in the tiniest fair bit, and assume they are doing great. Over estimation of one's ability is also being prideful, remember, if you can do something good, someone can probably do it better. We all have our own limits, just that some people limits are slightly higher then us, thats all. What is it to be so shameful about it ? I once was a very prideful person, probably inherited since I'm dealing with the person I inherited from, but I was glad that I met a bunch of good people whom I have to say, shame me, humiliate me with proper reasons and taught me what it is to eat the humble pie, think for others and what humility and servanthood leadership is. Sadly, some people who are already in their 60s can't comprehend that and I don't expect them to understand either. Sometime, it is not the most complicated of task or anything to be done or understood, but the simplest that is what is difficult. Slow down our footsteps, take a look and ask ourself, have we done the best we could for others? If not, how can we do even better? Learn to love life, learn to change with what life taught you and not reject it with all sorts of reasons. A famous person said this and I shall end with that. An error does not become truth by reason of multiplied propagation, nor does truth become error because nobody sees it. - Mohandas Gandhi

Tuesday, April 10, 2012 10:03 PM

Rantings

♥As I mentioned before, this will be a ranting place. Its bee donkey months since I last posted here. I am busy writing other stuffs more worth while then my own rantings. It looks like I am back.

Life hadn't been kind to me during the last year. It hadn't really been super kind to me this year either. But I will not complain, I'll try to look in the way that others have it worse then me, not to make me feel better, but more of contented.

Lastly, When you love a woman, you see your world inside her eyes. And yes, I see mines. What about you? It has been so long. I'm feel a little exasperated.

Saturday, September 10, 2011 11:53 PM

My life, Thus far.

♥At this juncture, I thought it would be good if I were to consolidate my life thus far. Much had happened over the months and frankly speaking, it wasn't the best time of my life. I somehow felt, that maybe I should write out my life and the future and I'll see things a little much clearer, and probably be more motivated then before.

I originally had this as my Goal.

1.) Bachelors of Nursing with First Class Honors
2.) Masters' in Nursing
3.) PhD, Doctor in Philosophy (Nursing)
4.) Become an Academic in NUS.

The above 4 goals were to me important and I told myself to achieve all of that by 35.

Due to recent events, I have kind of changed my goals a little and have changed it like this.

1.) Bachelors of Nursing with First Class Honors
2.) Apply for Duke NUS to do my MD (Medical Degree)
3.) Become a Cardiologist
4.) PhD

I think the change in goals had something to do with financial fear that I am experiencing now due to family related issues and the fact that I wanted the most financial freedom. The only way I see out of it base on the field that I am currently pursuing, was to to switch over to medicine. It wasn't because I didn't like nursing, but it was because of much personal issues that I felt nursing wasn't going to give me the edge.

If I do become a medical doctor, I will still say this, I was nurse before I became a doctor. I will not stop renewing my practicing certificate for nursing. I think the craziest part of all, was that I will still want to purse a PhD in nursing. I do not know if I'm a retard, but that is my new goal. Many may say I'm crazy, but what is there to stop me ?

Wouldn't that be cute if I become a doctor, with all the goals ticked and my name stamp will be reflected like this:

DR. Ng Min Kai Kelvin
Registered Nurse B.N.(HONS),PhD(NUR)
MD, MCR NO. *****

I guess I'll stick to this, the new goal will be what I'll be working towards now. My previous goal will be my backup plan in the event I do not get into medicine school. I guess that is all I should be working towards.

11:35 PM

Conclusion of General Election 2011; Thoughts and Feelings about this GE.

♥My country, Singapore had just finished another round of General Elections (GE). The past almost 2 weeks of campaigning was very interesting. Promises by the current ruling government against those who offer change, something better for Singaporeans, the oppositions, and the results were finally out. This will be interesting as we look at some prominent figures, and I'll share my thoughts on these people.

I've turned 21 officially in year 2011, but I'm not eligible to vote as of 31st December 2010, I'm still 20. This rule was enacted by the elections board, therefore I am one of those rare people this General Elections that does not need to cast vote besides those in Tanjong Pagar Grc. Like many others I have my opinions and thoughts on this GE, but I'll do my best to voice out and word it as unbiased in any way possible.

This elections, is by far one that will go down in history in the years to come, as in the past few decades, People's Action Party (PAP) usually will have a majority walk over prior to election day itself, meaning, even before pollings, they had 2/3 of the seats to form the ruling government. PAP doesn't even need to campaign as hard, and that could be one reason that people in singapore felt that PAP is getting complacent, and taking the citizens for granted.

This 2011 GE, has saw a record of 2.2 Million voters in singapore able to cast the precious vote, many for the first time in their life, (except those in Tanjong Pagar GRC) where our MM Lee, has helm over the years. Singaporeans over the years, has vent and voiced out their dissatisfaction with the ruling party, and has seen it being brushed off, (as many would have felt). This election was to be the deciding wake up call for PAP.

Certain issues that was raised during this campaign, in no order of ranking,Increasing HDB prices, cost of living is increasing, inefficient public transport system with ever increasing fare, and probably some little personal WKS responsibilities on the escape of a terrorist. So personally, I have a big issue with housing and transport. The rest, may still be able to manage, if the housing and transport is solved.

It took PAP almost towards the end of the campaign for our PM, to apologise and acknowledge that the ruling PAP has indeed oversight certain issues, and probably has turn a little bit of deaf ear to the people. Our dearest George Yeo, former (since he lost his GRC) Minister for Foreign Affairs, has also acknowledged and promise that change within the party will be started, and the people will be involved more. Sadly, George Yeo lost, and so has his ministerial post. I feel personally sad for him. He is one good man, one good politician (unlike some horsey which I'll reserve for abit later.)that has solved a lot of tricky foreign issues for Singapore. I would proclaim that Singaporeans has lost a good politician, and sacrifice a wrong person for the wrong reasons.

The Horsey, on the other hand, has much to answer, especially to the ever rising cost of public housing. But that is all in history as the new government has been formed, and the 2 greatest "public enemy" have been removed from their post. In another words, some justice has been done. This GE has seen some drastic response from the people to the ruling government, and so will the promise of change be delivered to the people ? We can only await the next GE in 5 years time, and the result will tell us the much needed answer to the question.

Sunday, June 26, 2011 12:07 AM

Somethings Just has to wait.

♥It wasn't easy on my part. I've finally decided but yet afraid to take the step of faith. I just want to say thank you, for all the ups and downs that you've been through with me. Yet I'm sorry for not telling you everything.


I'll seek for more leads and wisdom, not is not the time. When the time comes. It will be known. I don't have the faith yet, but I believe I will. Till the next time we meet.


What God has in store for me, I'm not sure.
But I'm sure that you're God sent.
Thank you.

Monday, May 16, 2011 10:53 PM

Dreams should just stay as Dreams.

♥In supernatural (TV SERIES), Dean once said, the dead should remain or stay dead.

Today, I shall say, Dreams should just remain or stay as dreams.

只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

I've shown you a weaker side of me that I do not show others often.
But dreams will just be dreams, sometimes, we have to wake from it. Back to reality.
Maybe this was a good dream, sadly, it is one that do not belongs to me. Its time for me to wake up and proceed on.

再见。

Friday, May 06, 2011 11:51 PM

♥It has been a while, Nevertheless, I've mentioned this to be my personal ranting blog. So I guess since I'm here posting, It meant I've something to rant.

我不知道我应该怎开始， 但是你吸引了我全部的注意力。

There is no reason for me to work so hard, if I don't have that someone to share with. Would I give up my personal goal for you ? Yes I will, what is the point of me achieving everything if all my equations doesn't have you ? It will make it no meaning for me.

You deserves the best, and only the best, from me, nothing worse. Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you... Because a Girl like you is impossible to find...

But, I don't know how to tell you, and I don't know how to react. Fear of the unknown.

Monday, March 14, 2011 11:12 PM

♥What am i doing in my life ? Shit, it simply sucks when you lose the steam and lose all the directions.

Its all your fault seriously, You're the crappiest dad I've ever seen, beyond hopeless.

And i stand by that point.

12:09 AM

I think, I need help

♥I serious think something is wrong with me, I guess I need some help.