Tuesday, December 26, 2006 1:26 AM

every one is so sad ...

♥Everyone around me now is so damn sad .. all having so much problems ... especially those who meant dearly to me .. just what is the world becoming to ?? i wana noe ... but it seems that i wont know ...

i dun noe why ... i suddenly felt that hopes were renewed ... hopes that one day ... we will be together as one ... hopes that u will be by muii side ... haas .. but its not going to come tru afterall ?? yy dun u just gibb me a big blow ... a hurting one ... probably ... i'll forget you straight ... i'm sorry for loving you ... i know its foolish of me to had settle muii eyes on you ... but i cant help it ... i dun noe why ... u attracted me at that instant ... i dun noe ... i really dun noe what shld i do ?? i cant forget you ... nither can i be closer to you ... i'm in a terrible state now ... just what had happen to me ?? i dun noe how long can i hold on ... ppl arnd me are getting sad ... making everything worst ... and i just cant leave them to be ... they meant so much to me ... and muii own problems ... i just dun noe ... do i stand a chance ?? could u kindly tell me ?? do i ?? just where the heck is wrong wit me ?? haas ... maybe .. its time to slim down is not it ??

i muiiself is in a lost situation ... but i cant allow muiself to be ... or rather ... i lie to muiiself that i am not ... cuz if i do admit that i am ... i wont be able to help those arnd me now ... i cant ... i cant fall at this instant ... but the shoulders are getting heavy ... its going to break ... it need a rest soon ... but it seems that ... rest is so far away ... and i wonder ... can i hold on till then ... muii heart is crying ... its bleeding ... from those tots of you ... muii heart is crying so hard ... because it loved you so much ... its bleeding ... cuz it cant let you go ... wat shld i do .. i really dun noe ... i wonder ... was it even a wrong choice to get to know you that fateful day ?? probably it is ... if i had left without anything tying me down ... i wont be in such a terrible situation now ... but i guess ... i got tied down now ... because of you ... i'm not blaming you ... is just that ... hais ... i dun noe how i shld go about it ...

alot of times .. seeing you in a a situation where u cant handle ... i really wan to stand in to help ... seeing u down on mood ... confused ... makes me even wana care for you more ... and thats how ... u stole muii heart ... i wont asked it to be returned ... cuz it can never be returned ... but now ... i'm like a pathetic fool ... hoping for the impossible ... just wat shld i do ?? can we work things out a little ?? cuz i noe i wont hold out for long ... though i am forcing muiiself to ... even if its force ... it wont be long .. jjust let me able to be feel loved .. thats all .. i guess .. tats something i noe i had forgotten ... the feelings of being loved ... while loving someone ... you meant so much to me .. i'm sorry for all those troubles that i had brought ... i'm sorry ... forgive me ...

wat more can i say now ?? i no longer know ... i lost it all ... lost it all badly ... a phatetic idiotic fool ... that is so torn and shattered .. that he cant even recognise himself ...


You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go
you know I wont give in
no I wont give in.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

So far away I wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side I will fight and defend i'll fight and defend yeah yeah.
Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong

cause you know i'm here for you,
i'm here for youtheres nothing you can say,
nothing you can dotheres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Hear me when I say,
when I sayI believe nothings gonna change, nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be
will work out perfectly yeah yeah yeah yeah
lalalalalalala...

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

-Avril Lavigne [keep holding on]