Thursday, March 29, 2007 6:10 PM

♥Its early hours in the morning liao ... i'm still not sleeping ... haha .. siao ... well ... i did the unbelievable... i requested to stop serving in JVS side for a short while, when asked to determined my short while, i guess to me minimum 3 months, maximum 6 to 9 months. dun ask me why, but i just wanted to stop... i tink i wana recollect my feelings back to the right track, before i can move on, i feel that my life is in a total messed up condition, thus i guess its time to do some clearing up...

i'm not sure what will the reaction be when i see the upper in charges on saturday ... but no matter wat, i want off .. thats it ... i'm sorry... but i want off ... when i told this to some of my frens, all asked me why, all say i siao to give up for presidents award when i can do it, next i gona stopp serving in jvs side ... well .. i'm sorry ... i need time to recollect my feelings back to the right track .. i dun tink i am in the best of the condition to carry further...

two days ago, was the 5th month where i noe that beautiful gal that i fell in love with, nah ... din talk to her ... and i totally forget to send her the sms that i typed out .. stupid right ?? over le la ... no point .. wait till the 6th month lor ... simple ... did see her on that day ... i mean two days ago ... but only a few seconds ?? after which i left school already ... oh ya ... poly starting soon liao .. haha .. so damn fast sia ... how time flies .. so big liao ... 17 leh ... haha ... sounds like a great age ... haha ...

men ... during these period of growing up years ... really did fall hard and learn lessons through the hard way ... man ... some are so darn painful ... haha ... pain make us learn our mistakes well ... but not necessary to be in any events ... just now go help my mei pay for the changing of her hp housing ... then tell me never bring money out .. i went to withdraw first ... guess what ... i did the most stupid thing i could have ever done ... i accidentally press the withdraw $1000 dollars button ... wakao ... i got a big scare can .... 20 pieces of $50 ... then after that quickly go home ... and went to my house posb cash deposit machine to deposit the money back ... wakao ... scary sia ... got a big big scare sia ... haha ...

well gal .. i'm sorry ... its been so hard just to tell u i love you .. i am not sure if u do too ... but i noe ... i noe that i do love you ... u make my life sway ... i love you loads ... i'm am waiting ... but ain't waiting like a fool no longer ... gona wait and do something about it ... cuz i noe .. i waited for you for the past 5 months of my life ... wana make u feel special ... that you're the only gal in the world that i should love ... let u feel that you're beautiful ... let you feel that you're as sacred as any treasures to me ... I love you ...