Friday, June 01, 2007 1:37 AM

ITS depression probably

♥wanted to update yesterday ... i am sorry guys .. i'm slowly sinking into depression ... i need all the support i can gather an rally now ... although at times i appear not to ... but when if you really see how sad i am ... i am really going into depression ... at least now i am clear headed enough to know ... but i wont know as time passes ... i am having symptoms of depression ... why had things come this way ??

Many will be surprised looking at my new blogskin ... i dun noe why ... just feel like putting thay genre of skin ... hmm ... maybe its sinking in ... Oh dear ... i want to get out of it ... where can i find the comfort ... that i really need now ?? sometimes i asked myself ... afterall its still you alone again ?? friends just left ... who really cared now ?? why must things come this way ?? i'm muffled ...

I hope after next week, the 2 weeks holidays, i will be able to sort out my thinking, my mood, and my emotions ... i really need to get it sort out ... my school mate were kinda of worried for me ... on monday, for no reason, i turn white ... my frens got a shock ... as i talk , i was turning white ... lips turning white ... face .... after trying to take my vital signs ... i gave them a scare ... it was so weak that they cant pulpate at all ... just what is happening to me now ...

Currently not AT home ... at frens house ... stayed overnight there ... and he is still sleeping like a pig ... and i woke up liao .... pig is pig ... cannnot change ... the size does not matters ... i dun noe yy ... kinda of love Linkin Park de Leave out All the rest ... haha ... i love Linkin park like nobody business ... but their songs can be rather negative at times .. haha ... but their latest album ...the way they do their song, had a changed ... they way they go on it ... its not their genre ... probably they are trying out something new...

Matters of the heart ... i would not want to say much ... i lost it all ... ya ... i guess ... somehow the heart decideds to rest ... an shut itself up ... yup ... i dun noe ... everything is like so slow ... so dampen ... well ... probably i had a once too *lively* life ... thats why when it slows down, i'm feeling that it is very boring ... well i wana stopped here already ... till here ...


When my time comes, forget the wrongs that i done ... help me to leave behind some reasons to be missed ... dun resent me .. when you're feeling empty... keep me in your memories ... leave out all the rest