Monday, August 20, 2007 4:17 AM

I wonder ...

♥Oh dear dear ... its exams in a few more hours ... and i'm up and jumping ... seriously ... is i cant sleep ... i fell asleep in the day ... then just now only sleep for 2 hrs ... played 2 hrs ... and now going to study after this entry ...

After that "incident" ... i guess only a few ppl noe bah ... i again ask myself again ... what will it turn out to be ?? Hais ... I'm doubting myself again ... i'm losing confidence again ... I'm sorry ... komenasai ... she said i am not confident ... thats the thing she hope i can change in bah ... but here i am ... doubting myself again ... wheter i had taken yet another wrong step ... I'm relieved and assured ... when she told me ... after that night of conversation ... she felt that we had gotten close ... but uncertainties still lingers in me ... deep down ...

Everyone is unique in their own ways ... so what about me ... i guess she was the first to tell me ... I tink you are unique ... hmm ... i mean ... after all these while ... its only recently then i know ... i'm attracted to her ... then i know such a nice person is actually by my side ... who accepts me for who i was ... who did her best to understand even when i can be unreasonable at times ... did all she can to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling down ... telling me jokes ... sending me funny videos to brighten up my day ... i mean ... where can i ever find such a nice girl now ??

In July ... i am not sure if i did post on it ... I had a good talk with Chin How ... then he told me is either you get over it and be done with it ... if not move on ... i gave myself a 2 mth grace to sort out that problem i had been dragging for 2 years ... now that i decided to move on ... because i found someone who is willing to accept me for who i was ... cuz she was the one who standby me ... motivate me ... and now that the 2 month grace period is almost up ... i made my decision ... to move on ... I'm sorry if this got me down ... i mean feeling the uncertainty ... i know you want me to be confident ... But many set backs in the past had made me lose it all ... but i will do my best to get it back ... because you're worth the effort ... you're the one who appreciate what i am trying to do so that we can see a future together ... you're the one who did not reject straight ... you're the one who is willing to gve the chance to work things out together ... where can i find another person like you ... for i had been searching for you ... for all these years ... you're all that matters to me now ...

Well ... the few ppl close to me know about this incedent le ... if you chance upon this entry ... then You will know ... well ... my bao bei mei ... she told me ... kor i Know her ... she is very nice gal ... if she is willing to work things out with you ... i'm happy ... she hope to see us together ... well ... lets be abit thick skin here ... she taught me that :) You're a nice gal i am a good guy :D


Lets walk this journey together shall we ... we are understanding each other more as the days goes ... I am waiting for the story you wanted to tell me about your life ... and i am waiting to tell you the story of my life ... I look forwards to the future together ... M&M


You got me suicidal ...
Your innocent face ...
Naive nature ...
Blurr Self ...
Its what i am attracted to you .....