Tuesday, October 23, 2007 10:52 PM

Its so stupid to think of a title ....

♥Alright, let me update some happenings so far, as usual, school starts the 2nd week, registered for electives, but not the ones i wan, but i'm fine with it. Well, studies are getting more and more difficult. Hais, what to do? Tetiary Education aint a piece of cake.

Well, lets back tracked to Saturday. 20th OCT.
Went to yishun and to ex capt house (insanely big) i mean, he lives in a landed property ... and we discussed through the agenda for 2008. Well, for yr 2008, i will be doing the BBSGB and LDC2. We went through also what does the year of sabbath meant to us. I mean our sponsoring church procalaim that next year is the year of sabbath. Well to me in relation to BB, i think it would be releasing of duties. Meaning not taking so much duty. After all we will have 3 new primers coming in with us. With one moving to NS in april and One going to OCT ... so if those 3 comes, we would have 6 primers. We decided to challenge and raise next year recruitment drive participants to BB as 15. But i hope that it would be 20. So that the strength of the company will hit 40++. As usual, it aint difficult, just have to do it. Ah i also doing first aid next year. Well nt taking drill anymore, maybe will help here and there i guess ?

21 OCT Sunday.
I was totally knock out when i reached home on saturday and slept for a good 13 hrs till afternoon. Well friday i was doing some stuffs and did not sleep alot, and sat have to go early for the 2008 planning. So literally i was knocked out, as usual slack a little, and went to do some studies and later in the night i slept ...

22OCT Monday.
Well that would ve yesterday. Hmm nth much really happy ystd ? Just that bio lect was a lose to me... i simply lose track of what the lecturere was teaching, men i was trying to get what he said all the way until the last 30 mins of lect, i gt lost ... so i have to revisit in maybe on thursday when school ends early or no school at all ... Oh ... Friday is no school day ... woohoo ... cuz its e-learning day ... everything will be done online on friday ... so not so ho kang afterall... WENT TO DO shopping ... bought a lot of stuffs ... till broke as usual ...

23 OCT TUESDAY
Which is today actually ... well as usual start schoo ... later then usual ... but got some changes to time table, or rahter we misinterpret it wrongly ... and school ended at 3 and i went home ... so was watching a show , then later i fell a sleep till not too long ago that i wake up ... Now it brings me to what i really want to say ... Oh god ... this is gona be draggy and i have to be up at 6 tomorrow morning ... idiot lab, so early ...


Well let me ask, at the age of 18, How well do you know about realtionship ? About love, About marraige, About living together, About have children ? I guess that many will say ... at 18 dun talk abt that ... Some will say that at 20 plus they cant even give a definite ans to that... Well guess what ... my class mate at age 18 got married ... to some one who is significantly older then her ... and my opinion, of course i dun approve of it ... but who am i to do so ... my reason of disapproval was because, you're 18, you're studying, you get married ? Hello?! you have only seen life for 18 years what much can you do ? how much do you know about love that you will love the guy till you die ? How much do you know about what marraige is and what it takes to last ? How much do you know abt what it takes to live with a person probably for the rest of your life ? And how much do you know about the responsibilites of being a mother ? And now, she is saying is pregnant ... i guess. Why ? People say listening to Baroque music is good for the child. And now she wants to get it from me, and said, she hopes that it benefit her child. I'm sorry to say, but if you're really pregnant now, trust me, you wont be able to study, the morning sickenss, the stress of carrying the child, the check up ... Oh god ... those are enuff to kill you let alone the fact that you still need to study.

ALright even if you deliver the child, The time you need to spend taking care of the child ? for the first year after delivery, it takes the most time of your life, Every few hours have to wake up to feed the child, have to wake up when the baby cries, have to wake up to see if need to change pamapers, well happy studying for school then ... even now when u're single last sem ... you have difficulties coping with studies, what makes u tink u can do it when u becoma a parent ? OH GOD ... THERE ARE SO MANY CRAZY PPL ARND ... lets talk abt financial, as i know, the guy is earning probably a 2k plus a mth ? need to support the parents also, and now need to support you, and the upcoming baby ? hello ... 2K not alot worx ... buy milk powder, pampers is well enuff to take up probaby 1/3 or more of the pay, what about bringing the baby to doctor for check ups ? B4 delivery, need to see the GYni (pardon me for wrong spelling) and stuffs ... nt cheap ... and the lucky thing is you all aint buying a house yet ... if you do ... happy struggling then ... and i meant what i said ...

My class mates were all crazy abt her getting married ... seeing the wedding phots saying ... wah so nice ... beautiful ... as if supporting her decision ... for me ... i dun even bother to look ... when ever it comes to the topic abt her marraige or her so call coming baby ... i would simply ignore and switch subject ... maybe lets see years down the road, how will life turn out for her ... nt that i'm bad already cursing her ... but in a society in singapore ... its aint easy ... Sorry for being evil ... but i will be the one opposing it till the end ... even if i am the only one who oppose ...

Ah ... so things are just so hard to say ... lets zoom back to me now ... :) Well ... what can i do ... as much as i wan to bring you with me ... but i guess i cant ... although i said i will bring u along with me ... but i cant ... i dun wan to state the reason here .... i'm sorry ... i cant hold my end of word ... Unless ... well u noe ... i dun wan to state here ... i will let you know when the time is to come ... so i'm sorry ... i cant bring you with me ... its hard for A guy to explain when a gal is following him overseas for so many years ...

Well ... life so far so good ... men ... so fast ... 2 weeks had past .... 6 more weeks and it would finish my third term, 16 more weeks will finish off my first year in poly ... oh God ... that fast ...

When a guy cant keep up to his end of his promise, its not that he dun wan to ... but is he cant ... As much as he wants to, there are limitations ... unless ... u decide to be the one that will follow him where he goes till he dies ...