Saturday, May 24, 2008 2:13 AM

My Soul Corrupted by vengence

♥Another late night posting again. Lazy to use my laptop to update, so now using my hp to update.

In a not too long ago post, i said some things in a moment of anger, but now i guess even when i'm now composed, i'll still say the same. With care and concern will comes disappointment. To lessen it. Heck Care . Because of certain issues, i'm dragg back into reflection again. A reflection of my life so far .

Sometimes i do wonder why am i changing, working so hard for, i meant some reasons named are like common, but again, what am i working so hard, and why ? Why am i so sentimental that i get so easily disappointed by ppl whom i care around me ? Why ? Can some one out in this freaking world tell me ? I just want to know why, thats all ...

Sometimes, i rather i do not know certain issues, i know, i'm worried, i'm worried i say, or advice, and when i do that, ppl who do the total opposite, i feel disappointed, sometimes, i ask myself, should i go ahead and laugh OUT loud at my frens who ignore what i said and get themselves into the screwed up situation ? I feel so damn disappointed always, i'm sentimental, i mean, come on, everyone got a soft and different sides of them. I've got one too ...

Next monday is my test week till the following week, after that i'm having 2 weeks holidays and i'll be out on clinical placement. Man, time passes by so fast that i can barely grasps it. Every i have to travel from the west to the north to school and back ... Its tiring, i'm suprised at myself at the so far diligent efforts that i'm putting into my studies knowing how well i dislike to study and how well i'm a slacker ... I'm amazed by the stimulus that is keeping me going .

Next tuesday got to go collect my new passport. I've gotten it replaced. And then sept i going australia. And i've like finally register for my driving thing on thursday ... Its like ... Its been 2 months and its like, woah ... Finally kind of things ...

I wish i'm not the type who is sentimental and care so much for ppl around me ... Should i try hardening my feelings so that i can stop these misery ? Somebody tell me ...

My Soul Corrupted by Vengence.
Nothing shall forestall my return.