Friday, June 06, 2008 12:21 AM

Why.

♥Its all over. Yes, everything is over. Test are over, so does my worries. and so is that issue. ALL IS OVER. Sam asked me this qn, wld i still care for her even after all these, like in the sense in the inside but not showing out, i said, obvious, that one no need to ask. Come on man, look around you and ask ur stupid self, how much ppl care for you sia. And u take tings for granted. how sad can it be, before you realise, probably me and sam may nt be there for you any longer.

I Dun Exemplify Attrocious Living. It meant, IDEAL. and it meant, your kind of living, do not deserved to be exemplified. Let me type my post in the loo, lolx ...

I din typed in the loo, and guess what, i saved the post and waited till 24 hrs later to continue. I think at this pt. I should do a full refelction of my life since the start of 2008. A half year reflection of my life, my goals, my asipirations, my problems.

I step into the year 2008 with a brand new hope dreams revitalised to see that i will have a fruitful yr ahead. I state down all my goals that i want to achieve from the start of 2008 till all the things i want to achieve in life. So i do think its a good habit, to take a little time off and pause, too look things through. My Goals. I've got Big Goals and Big Dreams.

My target was to score 3.5 every Sem with the start of a new sem in 2008 APR. Looking at how things are, I wont be able to reach my 3.5, But if things carry on as they are, i'm still in the 3pt range. I also wanted to lose weight, but haha, so far its on the negative route. Lolx. Studies more or less are quite okay, just that certain time, the laziness feeling just comes and you will skip classes a bit. This time, I din skip alot like i used to, i attended majority of the classes, and i only skipped when I'm not feeling well and i want to go home or i got a few test the following day. So, I dun think thats too bad.

I came into the yr 2008 hoping that i wont have any major problems that will alter my mood and emotions too drastically. But sadly, Somebody just did it and causes me to be in a bad mood for very long time and now, I'm feeling so dead out emoish thanks to that fella. We'll come to that later, so lets just leave it. Relationship wise, So far so good, All seems to be doing fine, Singlehood cant seems to be better then anything it is as now. Friends all are good except for something that happen today. That is my fren, but the one who ans the call, I'm sorry, but bitch. Again,I'll come to that.

All in all, Year 2008 seems to be a great year so far, Every year will be a better year once we learnt all the mistakes in the previous years. So current conclusion. I'm happy with my life so far. Everything is great. I cant ask more then anything like now. Lets just hope it stays on like this or become better. That would be great.

This year major problem came thanks to someone. I look on it,I dun know what to say now. Deep down, the tingling sensation fo care and concern is there, The emotion of hurt is there too. I admit, I was trying to be strong by not showing it out, But it all does exist inside. All inside. But somehow, I've got a a feeling that my good intentions are not well appreciated. Maybe I am inconsiderated and unreasinable that people who dun take my advices means my intentions are not appreciated, But this issues is way too a tricky issue that i feel that i cant let you have full control over it. But agian, it boils down to you, Your choice. Its your life, I have no control over it, Its the decision that you make, That affects the rest of the plans that you have, not mines.

I believe in saving a fren b4 they fall into the trap rather then rescuing them after they had fallen into the trap. I dun noe which is best. But my argument with another fren brought about this conclusion, To save my fren from falling into a trap,I've gotta force my opinions and decisions onto them and they gotta take it and its not fair. Well, a talk about human rights. So fine, Since it is said that a good fren is one who will standby and help their fren up after they fall, I jolly well standby that principle then. If things can change, People can change too.

And i simply dislike paranoid bitches. If you're feeling insercure, Why not look at what is giving you that insercurity, Generally, its you yourself. One thing, You've got terible manners when you pick up some one else phone, and you got a stinky mouth when you start scolding the person on the opposite line whose intended audience was not even you, bitch. And to think you can talk high and mighty. Come on, Zip it loser. I DUN EXEMPLIFY ATTROCIOUS LIVINGS. and the attrocious livings that i'm refering to, is you, bitch. Some people just do not know where they stand, probably they need to fall off the cliff, then they know where they stand. There are way too many losers out there. I simply cant believe it.

And thanks to that fren of mines, you know what, you destroy a good 2 weeks for me. If i dun care, I wont wana say, But now that i dun say, does not mean i dun care. I'll just let you do all the things you wan. Because at the end, I'll just get disappointed, man, i cant believe it, and to think i have such high hopes for you. And oh ya. You hurt me, You really did. Just to let you know.

Well, In conclusion, I'm having a life that cant be better but definitely i want it to be awesome. So, Lets just hope things will go down smoothly through the next half of the year. And from here, I take my leave.


Even if the world falls
I'll stand tall.